Honestly, (Taekook)

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The checkout was full of items for birthday party. Well, there was no cake, but candles, hats, balloons, confetti were there. Jungkook was about to laugh but if he did he knew he will have be in trouble so he just held it back. The man looked so scary but was actually buying childish items for birthday party. Jungkook would never forget this .

As he returned home he threw himself on the couch and took a deep breath before closing his eyes. But, he couldn't sleep at all. Tomorrow he is going to meet his mother. He was not ready. It has been 3 months he hadn't seen her and now he had to go because he had to get her sign papers to let him go to University in Seoul. Tomorrow is going to be a big day for Jungkook and he wanted to make sure nothing goes wrong. He stood up and went to take a shower. The hot water ran and hit his body, it felt good and refreshing. That day, he went to bed earlier.

It was morning and Jungkook was getting himself ready. He tried to wear something that looked nice instead of his school's uniform. He ate his breakfast and left home. On the way, he listened to music and he remembered that the song he was playing on his phone was the one he composed for last year school's festival. Everybody asked for a CD later and he was so happy that a big amount of person liked his song. It was like a dream. Well, everything was fine until his family had problems and that everyone went their way. He had to quit the music club and didn't have time to touch any instruments. Now when he sees Shin or his band mates he feels regretful and frustrated because there is no more spot for him. He won't shine like he used to anymore. Soon, he arrived in front of the hospice. He took a deep breath and pushed the front door. A young lady welcomed him. 

"I'm here to see Mrs. Jeon"

"I suppose that you are her son. Wait a moment please I will ask if she is in her room."

The young lady called and once she got the reply she led Jungkook to his mother's room. His mother was sitting on the edge of her bed and she was looking through the window. The young lady left and Jungkook stepped toward the seat next to the nightstand. She didn't notice him and he didn't know what he should do. Three months and he felt really awkward but he had to speak in order to get away from this mental torture.

"Mom...I..."

She turned to him and smiled. 

"Jungkook ! How is your father? Does he eat well? Because I'm here I can't even cook him delicious foods. Oh it was his birthday last week why he didn't come to see me ? I made him pastries and bought his favorite book ! Jungkook tell your father to come see me I feel really lonely here..."

She was looking once again through the window. Not realizing that her son's eyes were red and that tears were falling. He didn't expect this. He thought that she was getting better but it worsened. This is all because of him ! If he just kept his mouth close that day this wouldn't have happened. But Jungkook couldn't change the past. He wanted to hug her but he couldn't. He was afraid of rejection. He wiped his tears and forced a smile.

"Yes, he is doing well. He wants to meet you too."

She smiled widely and her eyes were shining.

"Really? I need to look pretty for him then."

He was at his limit. If he stays here he will blame himself and he won't be able to carry on.

"Mom...I need you to sign here it is for my university choice," he managed to say.

"But Jungkook, you don't need to go to university. You will succeed your father and you will become a great CEO."

He was expecting this. He can't disappoint her so he just smiled and left her after giving her the flowers. He went out of the hospice and stared at the sky. It was gray and suddenly a drop of water fell on his cheek. It was raining but he didn't bring an umbrella and he was only wearing a shirt. He rushed towards a closed shop and took out his phone. 1PM. Today he was taking the afternoon shift. But he won't make it on time because of the pouring rain. He didn't have the choice but to run. Just then a bunch of guys with baseball bats were running towards him. He was astonished and didn't know if he should just stay or run. Suddenly someone grabbed his arm and pushed him inside a dark alley. He was stuck between a wall and man. He was about to say something but the man put his hand on Jungkook's mouth. The man checked outside twice and after it was safe he removed his hand, gave Jungkook his jacket and walked away. Jungkook realized that this man was the same as the one who came to his shop to buy birthday items. Was this fate or just a dream ?