There's Only One Direction: London

Now What?

I didn't know where i was going. I ran up and down streets, sped around corners and trotted across front yards. I never stopped, even when i thought i was going to pass out, i wanted to find him, i loved him. 'Would he forgive me? Will he still be friends with Liam?' these questions shot throughout my brain, but were mostly covered by the hope of me finding Niall.  I shouted loud, not caring what the sleeping neighbors had to say. At one point, someone came outside and yelled at me to go home. But i didn't want to, i wouldn't go anywhere without Niall.  As i ran towards a park in the distance, i saw Liam across the street with Zayn. I changed direction and went towards them.

"So?" i asked panting. I was about to cry again, afraid of their answers, but then the words that came out of Liam's mouth made me so incredibly happy.

"Yeah, he's at the pier. Follow us." They began sprinting, and i followed close behind. It started getting colder as we approached the beach, so i was both shivering and out of breath, not the best shape anyone wanted to be in. Especially when your heart is at the point of completely shattering. We must have ran at least 10 blocks before arriving at the pier, and i was falling behind Liam and Zayn. Then, Niall came into sight.

"NIALL!!!" i screamed. Then i dropped my shoes and ran full speed, passing Liam and Zayn. Niall didn't move. He didn't look back, he didn't respond at all, and that made me petrified to see what his facial expression was at the moment. I looked  back and saw Liam phoning everyone else that we had found him. I quickly glanced at Zayn, and I gave him a 'What do i do?' look, and he just nodded his head. So i turned back to Niall, and walked towards the railing he was sitting on.  My legs were weak from all the running, so i doubt that my footsteps were smooth. I slowly crept beside him, he didn't look at me, he just continued staring out into the darkness of the horizon.  I was afraid to speak, afraid that he wouldn't respond. I put my hand on his shoulder and he shrugged me away. I again, started to cry.  I heard Liam creeping up behind me, but i turned and shooed him away, it would be best that he wasn't anywhere near Niall's fury right now. Then, without warning, Niall spoke,

"I wanted you to tell me all your secrets, not your mistakes." His  mouth barely moved, i could tell by the stiffness of his face that he was broken. I broke him. I wiped a tear that raced down my cheek with my naked arm. I was so cold, even though it was nice during the day, it gets ice cold at night, especially by the water.  I wasn't mad at him for saying that, he was right, it was a mistake. I climbed up on the railing next to him, and looked over at his pouting face.

"Yeah, you're right. Me telling you that was a mistake. Actually, me kissing him was a bigger mistake, but you know what? We are teenagers, and we make stupid mistakes. How do you think i felt when you told me you slept with… however many girls this year?" i said strongly.

"Three girls." he added smiling. He then turned to me and continued,

"Yeah but… the fact that you kissed my best friend… when we were going to talk about.. about US that same day? It boggles my mind Sara. And i hate that even if i do forgive you, that is going to haunt me when we kiss. I hate that you did that." He turned back forward to the blackness. 

I said nothing. There was nothing much for me to say, really. I put my head down and cursed myself. I cursed everything inside me that motivated me to kiss Liam. I wanted to kill myself right there, and i felt that Niall wanted to do the same. 

I felt Liam's warm hand on my back. I peeked behind me and saw that he was rubbing Niall's back too. That is something i learned about Liam, that his way of comforting people was to pet them, and make them feel warm, and it worked relatively well.  Liam's deep voice shattered the silence of only the waves crashing on the shore,

"Niall, you have to understand that… I didn't do it to hurt you, or anyone…." Niall looked back, met my eyes, then met Liam's gaze again.

"I did it because we are all friends, and we all give our everything for each other. Whether its a comforting kiss, or a reassuring hug. It is done to save the person from any more trauma.  And trust me man…." he patted Niall's back as he chuckled a bit. "Me and Sara will be nothing more than best friends. Always have been, always will be." He smiled and looked at me. I don't think i could have said it any better than he had. I wanted to smile  back, but i was still waiting for Niall's forgiving smile, but it never came. I grew aggrivated and without thought, I told him this;