Mistreated, Misplaced, and Misunderstood. (GirlxGirl)

Chapter 9.

CHAPTER 9

As I look up at the ceiling. Not asleep, not tired at all.

The faint sounds of mom snoring in the background, of the noise and the heat coming from the airconditioning.

The moon was as white as snow. Shivering as I grip the sheets tighter.

My eyes reflect off the moonlight.

Most likely showing sliver in the darkness.

I sigh as I shift around in my 'bed' or the living room couch.

Getting off of the couch and looking outside the windows.

Seeing all the stars of what I could in the city lights.

The moon shined brightly tonight, as my mom had said it would.

Each star left me thinking how it came to be.

So many stars in the sky, yet so many miles apart.

I must have looked up there for so long, until something broke my trance.

One star in peticular, a shooting star had caught my eye.

Left as swiftly as it had came. Leaving a white streak in the night sky.

Leaving my heart pounding as I said my wish.

"I-I, I wish, that A-Anna will give me a c-chance, o-or at least still be my friend."

I sigh walking over to the couch. Sitting down again.

The warm sheets underneath me as I squirm around and think.

The tears on my cheeks were not noticed until my eyes became blurred and fuzzy.

Then reality hit me with a sudden force, causing me to break down.

"No she could never love me!" I think as my tears become more.

She loves Ryder!

Ugh, unbelievable! Why and how can she love him?

He is an asshole!

But still she is happy, and that's all that matters to me.

She will be happy and loved.

Unlike me.

I can't stop thinking about her.

She feels like, she is my other half, if you know what I mean.

But then I shift my mind to Lucy.

I feel torn. I love them both.

God, why does this have to happen to me god me!

I don't know what has gotten grip of me, pulling my shoulders into sleep.

Dreaming, dreams that I want to happen.

Making me happy in one little moment, but all vanishing the next.

- - - - - - - - - -

The boy whom I danced with that night was there.

Looking into my eyes, with his grey ones. Brown hair shining in the light.

The room door was closed. No one else was here.

Oh god, this is very wrong.

'How did I get here?'

He coughs a little, making me turn my attention back to him.

I waiting for him to play with me, than throw me out like trash.

But he made no intention to take advantage of me.

Just staying there.

"Look I have something to ask you." He says his voice blurred out. I guess that is common in dreams.

"What?" I ask, getting nervous beyond every second that we were both silent.

What is he going to ask me.

"Will you go out with me?"

- - - - - - - - - - -

I wake up, sweat pouring down my face.

Holy crap what was that?

The school bully aka. my secret lover just asked me out.

Woah, woah wait. It was all a dream.

He would never ask you anyway.

But that left me wondering.

Well, he did dance with me.

He did give me a flower.

He did kiss me.

It did leave wondering.

In the darkness.