Lucas –
I feel certain that I am going mad again. Not in the traditional, throw her into a strait-jacket and ship her off into a mental institution way, but in the sense that I don't know who I am anymore. I feel no that's not right – that's the problem, I don't feel. But I do think, I think I can't go through another terrible time. I can't recover this time. So, I am doing what seems the best thing to do, for myself, and for everyone around me. But please just know, that you have given me the greatest possible happiness. You have been in every way all that anyone could be. I don't think anyone could be happier than me when I'm with you – but it's when I'm not with you that the darkness settles in. I need to free you. I have become far too dependent on the people around me and I can feel you all slipping away – so I'm letting go. I can't fight any longer, I don't have it in me. I can't go on spoiling your life any longer. And please, I know you owe me nothing, but tell Riley that she is the best thing that's ever happened to me. I know that if the love could save lives, she and I would be immortal. I'm telling you this because if anyone could've saved me it would've been either of you. But you can't save me. I am but a shadow of the person I once was. I loved you. But love just isn't enough.
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And Then She Stopped
Fanfictionlucaya // Maya Hart has been running her whole life, running from her past, her present, her everything. But the thing about running is, sometime you have to stop, and that's usually when whatever you're running from catches you.
