"Oh my god will you just...SHUT UP?!" Namjoon had had enough of this conversation.
He loved you.
Loved you for as long he could remember.
He admired you from afar.
Your ex coming into your life over and over again.
Seeing the cycle go on and on.
He looked at you with so much love in his heart but his heart hurt.
It burned.
Burned like it was set a blaze and every word that came out of your mouth was just adding more fuel to the fire.
He loved you.
Why couldn't you accept it?
Did you even like him?
Had he gone over his boundaries?
Why were you looking at him as if he would kill you?
Your words were echoing in his mind over and over like a record.
"Love is something that you want to have and when you get it; Everything changes.
Your senses, your emotions your fucking LIFE CHANGES, NAMJOON! AND SOMETIMES YOU DON'T WANT IT TO CHANGE YOU FOR THE WORSE!"
Change you for the worse?
Were you afraid of him?
What made this start?
Why is this, his confession, becoming more of a regret?
Why wouldn't this bitter taste in his mouth go away?
Namjoon couldn't bare to see your beautiful face cry hot, angry tears in front of him.
Not even for a moment.
He turned around the clenched his fists as he tried to fight back his own tears building up inside.
He looked outside the patio door and noticed the moonlight shining inside the room.
Even though the lights were on.
"Do you even like me?"
No answer.
"Do you even like me?" Namjoon persisted.
Still no answer.
"GODDAMN IT. ANSWER ME! PLEASE!" Namjoon screamed and fell to his knees.
He loved you.
So damn much.
Why couldn't you accept it?
You didn't have to become a couple.
He just needed you in his life.
5 years of seeing you grow.
Seeing you smile, laugh, care, cry, scream.
Seeing you love.
You had loved.
He saw you love your ex.
He saw you love your best friend.
He saw you love those pets in the pet shop.
He saw you love your job.
He saw you love.
He. saw. you. love.
Was he not worthy of your love?
Was he not good enough for you?
"I—I do." you choked out and slowly made your way over to him.
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Smoker's Fix
FanfictionYour life is very hectic. It's an infinite loop and trying to get out of it is harder with every turn. Well who's this stranger that doesn't even know your name but wants to-wait WHAT?! This is a Namjoon Kim fan fiction.
