Smoker's Fix

May You Smile To Your Best Ability, Sunshine

After leaving the airport, you all embarked on a long drive through Los Angeles traffic to find the hotel you all would be staying in, check in, get settled and go out to eat. You on the other hand had other things in mind. One of them being that you had to find a way to be able to work on your work and not think about the fact that you are another 2 hour car ride from being home. Somewhere you haven't been in a very long time and might end up becoming a crying mess if you thought about it too much.

I. Am. Not. A. Child.

After the cars arrived at the hotel, you looked at with a little shocked.

My, my, fancy living aren't we? The Sunset Marquis huh?

As you all got out of the cars, you made your way inside the main lobby. The floors had a beautiful tiling and the walls gave you a sense of luxury.

You felt a little underdressed in such a prestigious place. You knew you could afford it. Money wasn't the issue. The issue was:

How long did you have to stay with the boys? How long is this tour going to be exactly?

You looked at Namjoon with a worried look in your eyes and called him over.

"What's up? You okay? Having bad withdrawl?" Namjoon looked at you, analyzing your face and your body.

"Do you know how long we are going to be staying here?" you responded, crossing your arms across your chest

"8 days. Don't worry. I got you a room all to yourself already." Namjoon said to you while looking at his phone nonchalantly as your eyes went big.

"You paid for it yourself?" You felt a pang of guilt hit you right in the chest.

Why would he do that?

"No, I just asked for an extra room for you. You wouldn't think I would have you pay for this by yourself would you? This is your vacation, Sunshine. Enjoy it will ya? For me?" he ruffled up your hair and walked away to get the room cards for everyone.

WHAT?! DOES HE HAVE ANY IDEA HOW MUCH THAT IS?

YES YOU CAN GET THE HOLIDAY DISCOUNT SO IT GOES DOWN A BIT IN PRICE BUT STILL!

8 DAYS HERE?

THAT'S.....$2,425.91!

Sitting down on a couch, you rub your temples. You tried to take everything in and got lost in thought for a bit. But before you could really think about it, Hoseok & Taehyung ran up to you and made you stand up so you all go to your rooms

While on the way around the property, you didn't speak. You observed the boys looking around in amusement as they saw the pool, restaurants and spa. It made you crack a small smile as they moved their heads around trying to take in their surroundings as if they would be taken away at any moment.But as you watched them, you felt strange.

It was awkward, yes but it was more than that.

It had a feeling of misplacement.

Like you didn't belong with them.

Like you weren't supposed to be there with them.

You pushed these thoughts away as everyone came to a stop at a small villa on the property and V along with Jimin opened the door and smiled wide at the look of where they would be staying. Soon, one by one the boys started to all leave the group and it was now just you, Namjoon and Jin.

They stopped and Jin turned to Namjoon and waved goodbye to you both.

"Thank you for uh, coming on this um, trip with us all." Jin stuttered as he tried to find the words in English to put together.

"*Korean language saying no problem and not to be worried about speaking in English with you*" you said back and smiled as a look of relief went across his face and he went inside his little villa and brought in his and Namjoons bags with him.

"Come on, Sunshine. Let's get you to your house." Namjoon said and guided you around the corner, passed the sparkling blue pool and got to your small villa. As both of you got into the room, you looked around and took in your living space for the next 8 days. You put your bags down and turned arount to Namjoon.

"Why did you do all this?" you looked around the room and stopped by the windows.

It wasn't your city skyline you were used to with your sucky patio furniture and pretty much full ash tray.

It was the walls around the property with fancy patio furniture and some fake grass.

"Why do you need to know so badly? Can't I just be nice?" Namjoon walked up next to you and turned his head to your direction. You just shook your head and walked away towards the patio and opened the door to stand outside and feel the slight breeze. Namjoon came up behind you and hugged you from behind.

"That kiss back home? That was real. Don't doubt my niceness, Sunshine." He kissed your neck and pulled back.

"Namjoon, wait." You turned around and cupped his face and kissed him passionately.

STOP. WHAT ARE YOU DOING? YOU CAN'T LIKE ANY ONE, LET ALONE A KPOP IDOL!

Okay. So let's boil this down:

- I met Namjoon a little over 2 and a half months ago.

- Not only did I not know of his existence for 5 years, he knows things about me that my own acquaintances don't even have the slightest clue about.

-He's helping me beat my smoking habit. Which is actually working a bit though I do have some thoughts about starting back up again. I haven't had a cigarette in about 5 weeks. That's pretty impressive. Right?

I mean, I've tried to quit in the past but as my relationship with him....it happens over and over again.

But it hasn't.

I even blocked his number so I'm not even tempted. Deleted our messages and even got my locks changed just in case he finds the extra key I gave him while we were still together.

Can't believe I forgot about the key.

Either way.

I'm back in America. Been away for 4 years.

Why do I feel like shit but excited?

This boy group. BTS.

Are they going to be good for me?

Or will I regret everything just like last time someone tried to help this lost cause?

As all of this was happening and rushing through your mind, you didn't realize that you both had made it to the bedroom and were laying on the king sized bed together, holding each other as if you two would be ripped apart at any moment.

That, in itself, is what it feels to fall for someone by accident.