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i don't want to feel anything if it's not the embrace of your warmth when you're near me
but you're colder now;

my dearest blossom,

in a way, you're lucky
because although you know nothing about yourself
you haven't been left in pieces with no one to pick them up

you always get confused when i unconsciously touch you in a loving way just like i used to

and it hurts to see the blank look of uncaring on your face when i cry at the sight of you and
the monotonous expression that was once so full of joy;
i'm not over the loss of the old you

your coldness taunts me
as if the world is using you as bait,
allowing me to have you so close
but not in the way i used to,
not in the way i need to

i wish you'd come back

forever yours, sehun