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VI

your mind can't take the weight of the world again, and it pains me to know that all i can really do is hope and wait;

my dearest blossom,

i know that the chance
of you getting better
is near non existent

tonight your mind
shut down again,
falling into a healing sleep,
but this time
you might not wake up
and if you do, it'll be worse
than the last time

you'll forget yourself again
and everything i worked
so hard to rebuild
will be gone
exactly like it was the first time

am i selfish for changing my mind and wishing that you'd just remember me
despite it meaning that you'd remember all the horror that your eyes had captured
before your brain deleted its history?

am i selfish for wanting you here again
when you so desperately don't wish to be?
my love, meet me in the orchard in which we wed

but only if you can

forever yours, sehun