Denial

Chapter 12

Right after he closed the door I clicked Edward's contact name. It rang three times before he answered.

"What's up, Soph?" Edward asked with a sort of happiness in his voice.

"The boys will be out of town this weekend. I was thinking you could come over and we could..." My voice trailed off as I could hear him catch on to what I was saying.

"That sounds like a great idea." Edward answered my unasked question.

"Your mom will be checking on me tomorrow, hopefully not early. I'll text you after the boys leave, they should be out of here in an hour." I informed as I bit my lip in anticipation. This night would be amazing, if I could pull it off without getting caught.

"Ok, I'll make sure she won't wake up too early." he said mischievously. "Tonight's going to be amazing." I could tell there was a smirk on his face and I blushed ever so slightly.

"I can't wait." I replied, trying to hide my real excitement. "Bye, Edward."

"See you soon, my love." He ended the call poetically, leaving me to fantasize about what would happen later on this supposedly magical night. I knew everything sounded sappy and annoying, but my thoughts were the total opposite.

I practically had to kick the boys out of the house so Edward could finally come over. He climbed through my large window at my command. I pulled him by his shirt the rest of the way in, locking eyes with his green orbs. A smirked appeared on his face due to my eagerness, and it never left. Bitting my lip, I smiled softly and stood up on my tip-toes.

"Your eyes take my breath away." Ed whispered as he brought a hand up to caress my cheek, that was anything but skinny.

"I can't tell you how much I love you, Edward. But I can show you." I slowly pulled him down towards me by the collar of his thick shirt as he wrapped his arms around my waist. His breath was hot on my cheek and I felt as if I lost all control when I was with him. I loved it: the rush, his touch, his stunning eyes following my every move.

Our lips finally met and it felt like I was being kissed for the very first time. It gave me the same feeling a rollercoaster gave. Edward lifted one of his hands back up to my face and depended the small kiss. I had missed the feeling of warmth he brought to me. I knew that, even if I tried, I couldn't go a day without him. I knew all too well what would happen when I let myself fall for him, but I never dared to imagine it would feel this good.

"I want to know what you're thinking." Edward breathed as he pulled back from the kiss, catching the attention of my eyes. Now I knew we were thinking the same thing.

"I love you, Edward Styles. I am in love with you, hopelessly and obliviously in love." I told him, not caring if everyone in the world heard me. "You make me feel happy and I wouldn't want to love anyone else. But it also scares me to death when I think about all the pain I will feel if something happened to you or if we couldn't be together. I hate to admit it, but I'm dependent upon you and that terrifies me. It was so much easier when I didn't feel anything, because , at least then, I couldn't be hurt." He asked for it, I thought in retospective.

"You don't have to be scared. I feel the same way. I can't go a day without seeing you or thinking of you. I would lose my mind if we couldn't be together. I love you so much, Soph. I love you. I am in love with you, Sophia Payne." I couldn't believe what I was hearing. No one had ever said these kinds of things to me. No matter how many times he said it, I still wouldn't be able to believe that he loved me that much. I didn't want to say anything that would ruin the moment, so I kissed the lips that I couldn't get enough of.

Edward walked me backwards towards my bed without breaking the soft kiss. After I turned us around so I landed on top on him, things got a bit messy. My senses were heightened to the extreme. I could feel everything from Edward's hands running down my back, to his lusciously soft hair between my fingers. He kissed down my neck painfully slow, making me moan.