"Soph, thank god it's you." the dark haired boy sighed after pulling open his stainless new door of his 'improved' house. "I need to apologize for what happened last night. I never should've pressured you into taking the stupid drugs."
"You can apologize later, right now I have something to tell you." I walked past him into the hallway of his home. "Come on," I hopped up the hard wood stairs making slight thumping noises until I made it to Edward's bedroom.
"What's this about? What do you need to tell me?" Edward asked as immediately sat down on his soft dark blue bed. He followed and tried to grasp my small hand, but for once I didn't let him.
"The boys are going on tour in two weeks and they want me to go with them." I admitted, trying to find any signs of emotion in Edward's eyes. "I don't think I have much of a choice, really. Liam is my legal guardian and I have to live with him. But then there's you. I can't leave you." I weighed the options out loud without truly meaning too.
"What did you say, when he asked you to come?" Ed asked suddenly timid.
"I didn't give him an answer yet. I came here because I couldn't make a decision without talking to you first." I sighed before putting my head in my hands, resting my elbows on my thighs. Ed could tell I was stressed about the matter, but he could also tell that I hadn't fully forgiven him for what he did. The boy knew that if he spoke I would just get angry, so all we could do was sit in heavy silence.
"You can't stay here. As much as I want you too, you belong with Liam for now. If he's leaving, then you have to go too. That's just how it has to be." Edward stated after a long time of me trying not to cry.
"So you're just giving up..." I trailed off as tears brimmed my eyes at the thought of him moving on so quickly.
"No! No, I'm not giving up. I would never give up on us. I will always love you more than anyone else in this world, Sophie." Ed brought his strong, ink covered arms around my smaller body in comfort.
"But don't you see, that's the problem." I whispered to myself more than to him. "Loving only brings pain in the end. All of the good memories are replaced with pain and heartache."
"What are you saying?" Ed asked slightly offended, letting go of me.
"I'm saying that I should've never fell in love with you! I knew I shouldn't have, but I was too caught up in the moment to stop myself. They were right, it was a mistake." I shook my head as the words of doubt rushed out. Ed had a shocked look on his face and I tried to avoid his gaze.
"You're letting them brainwash you, Sophie! We're not a mistake. We're in love and when you're in love you're going to get hurt sometimes. It sucks, but that's just how it is. Love isn't always unconditional. It has it's consequences, but you have to be willing to overcome the pain. I love you Sophie and that's not going to change after you leave." Edward was desperately holding my hand and trying to catch my attention. I could only look away, for my tears were threatening to fall.
"That's not true! It will change. You might love me now, but you won't love me when I come back. You'll get sick of waiting and calling and texting. You'll learn that you never needed me at all and you'll move on while I will only be feeling pain." I buried my face in my hands and I could feel the salty water dampening my cheeks.
"You can't keep saying that. I love you so much-" Edward reached out and rested a hand on my shoulder.
"No you don't! And you never did!" I yelled at him before standing up off of his bed and beginning to pace slightly. Suddenly, Edward grabbed my wrists firmly to stop my pacing. He held me at a respectable distance away from himself as if he would hurt me.
"How much more proof do you need from me, Sophie? I LOVE you, isn't that enough?!?!" His voice bellowed throughout the empty house making me flinch. "Why do you always have to deny things? Why can't you just accept my love and believe me when I say it?!?!" Ed tightened his grip with every sonorous word. I could barely feel my fingertips by the time I tried fighting back.
"Let go of me Ed." I instructed, but he only enclosed his hands more and more around my thin wrists. "You don't mean anything you're saying."
"Why?! Why can't you accept my love!?! You're the only person I've ever loved like this and I don't know how to describe it. Being with you is something else. It's what life is supposed to be like. How could I not be in love with you?" Ed yelled, not once loosening his grip on my scared wrists. "The sad thing is, I'm always going to be the one who loves the other person more than they will ever love them back." He dropped my wrists to my sides, allowing me to rub the bruised skin.
At that point I had no idea what to say. My mind was saying that he was just lying and that I never should've fallen for him. But my heart wanted to just lay in his strong arms and forget all my troubles.
I finally agreed that my heart was delusional and my head was trying ruin everything. All of the worries and thoughts in my brain melted into one big mass of stress and the next thing I knew I was lying on my back on Ed's soft carpet.
"What happened?" I asked ignoring Ed's arms trying to keep me down. The light came back to my vision and it felt as if a day had passed me by. I had a strange anxious feeling that I had missed out on something.
"I don't know. One minute we were arguing and the next you were on the floor. Are you okay?" Edward asked as he helped me stand up.
"Yeah," I replied softly, "this used to happen to me a lot. I would think too much and then pass out...but the last time it happened was four years ago. I'm fine though." The blood drained from my head and I could finally stand on my own two feet again.
"Sophie, I just want you to know that I love you more than I've loved anyone." Ed whispered as he tucked a piece of my light blonde hair behind my ear. Every move he made captivated me and there was no escape. I was in love too and there was no way of fighting it.
"That's the problem. Don't you see? Since we fell in love, it's going to hurt like hell when I leave and I don't know if I can take any more pain." I whispered wrapping my arms around myself in attempt to calm myself.
Ed gently wrapped my arms around his neck while bringing a hand to the back of my head. He brought me closer to him as we stood in the middle of his new yet familiar bedroom. And for some reason, I started to cry into his Led Zeppelin t-shirt.
"It'll be okay Sophie. Everything will be okay, I promise." Ed whispered to me to help stop my cries. The hopeful force in his voice made me believe that it actually would be okay, no matter what happened.
"But I have to leave in less than two weeks. I want it to be okay, but it just isn't." I clung to him like a monkey to an extremely valuable banana.
"I promise, Sophie. I promise." was all he said as we stood together, which was all that mattered then.
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Lol the banana thing
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Denial
Fanfic"A room like this could only belong to a complete prat," said a deep, raspy voice from the doorway of the room. I spun around to see someone who looked almost identical to Harry, yet a bit shorter and a lot better looking. He wore black boots, rippe...
