Blue screens and anxiety,
Fearing loneliness as well as embracing it entirely.
Excuses, excuses, typing out small talk
Send, send, fingers dry as chalk
Waiting for responses while swinging my legs feeling despondent
Clutching and clawing feeling at my chest,
Refusing to give my heart any kind of rest.
Obnoxious, obnoxious, I'm sorry I won't leave you alone
Apologies, apologies, I just keep blowing up your phone.
But you see, my greatest fear is coming to light,
That our friendship is something that is fading out of sight.
Your messages short and curt,
My hope crumbles like dirt.
No, no, please don't leave
The thought of your absence makes my lungs heave
Please don't leave me in the dark,
Just tell me if I'm annoying or make a rude remark.
I have trouble letting go and when I attach I hold on too hard
So I understand if I leave you on your guard,
But you just don't get it
I love you too much,
I can't quit.
