If I die tonight, I would break the hearts of many
And as selfish as it sounds, that's a good feeling
I am aware of the people that I am surrounded and supported by
They drag my attention back from staring cold at the ceiling
As I've made my mistakes, they remind me that the marks on my arms will eventually fade to pink
They know me best and are not afraid to shout if I stray to the depths of my mind
More often than not I am naive, or give in too quickly, so I begin to sink
In my emotions I being to drown and I plunder into the deep that I'm so terrified of
Only to see 7 figures swimming after me, bubbles escape their lips as they call
I panic for I am being dragged deeper by something or other, and I give up for I will not float
But in unison their lips move and the bubbles pop "let go" and it's like I've hit a brick wall
I realized while I was being dragged, I was holding on
Each time I would detach I would scramble back, continuing to fall deeper into my ocean of despair
If I let go now, will this really be gone?
Salt would sting my eyes as I was met with bright smiles
There's water in my lungs and my hair is soaked
But I am no longer in that god forsaken ocean
For I forgot that I needed to breathe, and underwater, I had choked
