VIXX Imagines

Ken x Reader ((Disguise))

I was sitting there, in my room, just like everyone else, but I'm different. I attend a school in America, yes, but I go to a private high school and I'm the ONLY kpop fan there is. I'm the only one into Asian guys that can sing, dance, and are very hot. I tried to introduce people, but no use. It was absolutely useless. I have friends, yes, but they don't understand the pain I feel of not fitting in. When I fangirl, no one fangirls with me. No one is there to sing kpop songs with me. I have no one to look at oppa with me. I have no one to talk to about bias. I don't understand why. Why did I deserve this? Why me? It's the same schedule for me. Wednesday schedule consists of English, then science, then math, then reading, then recess, then lunch, then religion, then technology, and finally, gym. After gym, everyone leaves, but I am one of the few that go to tutor other kids at middle schools. Of course, I walk there since it's like a block from our school and that way, I'd get a little workout. Truthfully, it's nothing much. I help kids with whatever they need. When my phone goes off in the middle school classrooms, everyone looks at me weirdly. This was normal. But on the 30th of November, a new student arrived. His name, Jaehwan. Sure, he and I talk sometimes, but only for group projects. I finally grew closer to him when I found out that he loved kpop too. His favorite group was probably TWICE and so was mine. We couldn't really choose our bias since they were all bias wreckers. Once we got to know them more through talk shows, we loved them even more. The curse of kpop. Truthfully, we both couldn't choose our favorite boy group. He listened to songs together and he became a tutor like me. He sing songs with me, he danced with me to the songs, we would discuss all of the news we found out, we would watch MVs at lunch together and see the subtitles for talk shows. We had inside jokes and they were all related to one thing. Kpop. Our love, our life, our death. No way are we dying from anything else. We went to kpop stores together as well and spent hundreds of dollars there. It truly was no problem at all for us, but our fun soon came to an end. We eventually graduated high school and we tried to keep in touch, but he was busy. I didn't know why, until years later, I was 20 and he was 21. We met again because he was in my hometown. I came to see him and we talked. He said he was a trainee for a new kpop group and it shocked me to hear that. I was so proud of Jaehwan. He followed his dreams and will become famous and adored one day. He will become successful. He will win awards and he will become people's bias. He will be outstanding. He will go onto Weekly Idol, he will go to talk shows and now it will be just me again. It will always be just me. This time I'm watching my friend's success on tv and on my computer. I won't have anyone to fangirl over, but now I'll fangirl over my best friend. It will be like old times. Old times before Ken came. I never would have a chance at this kpop group thing. I'm not Korean nor can I sing or dance. I was just a fangirl. One day, he will forget me and when I go to his fan signings, he will just see me as a fan. A fan he adores because they support him. He says he loves us individually, but he won't even know I exist. Frightening, isn't it? It's the truth. After hours of listening to each other, he had to leave. Ken couldn't be close to me anymore. Of course we had each other's numbers, but we'd rarely call, especially since he will be debuting soon. He will be debuting as VIXX's Ken, not Lee Jaehwan. The Jaehwan I sang with, not the Jaehwan I was best friends with. Now it's the main vocal, Ken. Jaehwan, I wish I could tell you my true feelings, but now I have to keep them hidden. I have to hide my love for Jaehwan and replace it with the love for Ken. Are they the same person? No. I was friends with Lee Jaehwan in high school, not Ken. I knew Lee Jaehwan inside out, not Ken. Why did Jaehwan have to leave me? Why couldn't it be Hannah or Katie? Why Jaehwan? MY Jaehwan. Can I take this much burden? Will I love Ken more than Jaehwan? Will I have to forget everything I knew about Jaehwan and replace it with what I know about Ken? I have to learn to call him by Ken now. Not Jaehwan. Not guppy, like the old times, but Ken. It will be a new experience for me that's for sure, but will I like it? Will I like Ken more than Jaehwan? Can I like Ken more than Jaehwan? How could I? I'd be a monster. I got snapped out of my thought by Jaehwan, sorry not Jaehwan, Ken. They look alike in many ways, but they are different in feeling. Ken looked at me and hugged me. God, how I wish Jaehwan was here. Ken gave the same hugs as Jaehwan. They were both warm, but they have different feelings. Jaehwan's hugs were out of love. It didn't matter if it was a brotherly sisterly love, or a lover's love. All I know is that it had deeper meaning. Ken hugged out of friendship.
"Ken, where did Jaehwan go?" I mumbled into his chest.
"I'm right here (Y/N). What are you talking about?" I'm so confused. He keeps saying he's Jaehwan, but he obviously isn't.
"No you're Ken. You're not Jaehwan."
"How do you know that?" I pulled away from the hug and looked at him straight in the eyes.
"Jaehwan hugged me like he loved me, like he wanted the hug to last forever. He hugged my like he was my lover. Ken hugged me like friend. He didn't love me as much as Jaehwan did. I want Jaehwan back." Ken stood there motionless. What was he shocked for? I should be the one shocked. I just lost Jaehwan to his twin that cared less for me.
"(Y/N), Jaehwan is still here. Jaehwan just changed his name to Ken. That's all."
"No. You're wrong. Jaehwan made a promise with me on December 18. If you're the real Jaehwan. Then tell me what it was? What was Jaehwan's promise to me?" A promise that lived in my heart since he announced it. Ken took a while to think, but after minutes of just staying there, Ken gave me an answer.
"I-"
"No. Jaehwan."
"Fine. Jaehwan's promise," Ken grabbed my hand in his and kissed it, kneeling down on one knee, "was that when he came back to find you, he will marry you, but only through disguise. As a different person with the same face, just a different feel. Jaehwan promised to take care of you for the rest of history life and even after death, he doesn't want to part ways with you. He wants to care for you, but only if you say yes. So Jaehwan wants to know something... (Y/N) Jaehwan asks if you could do the honors of marrying Jaehwan, pretending to be Ken." I could finally see behind the disguise, it truly was Jaehwan. MY Jaehwan.
"I will. I will marry you, Jaehwan. I will marry Lee Jaehwan because I love him and I have finally seen past his mask, his disguise.
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Hope you enjoyed my oneshot! Sorry if it was confusing and if you didn't know, Lee Jaehwan is Ken. Lee Jaehwan is Ken's real name. How you enjoyed it. I would like to thank my friend of mine again Georgette-A for all of the support and congratulating me on almost hitting my goal of 100 followers.