Secrets

Chapter 14 ~ Alesha's PoV

I have been fantasising the moment I told Rachel since the day I knew that Rachel was coming! It was not how I expected it.
I can't concentrate on the auditions properly, I just keep thinking about my daughter. Will she like my boyfriend? Will she like her little sister? Does she even like me? So many questions.
"Alesha? Hun?" Someone says, interrupting my thoughts.
"Huh?"
"I'm sure that Rachel will like Azuka, and she will love little Azura. And duh, of course she likes you, anyone can see that. Everything is going well between you two, don't fret and keep asking questions to yourself. Everything will work out well." Amanda replies. Oh wait, I said that all out loud, I really do need to keep my trap shut.
"How do you know that though? How do you know that Rachel will like Azuka and Azura? I can't help thinking that something is going to go wrong, I just know it will." I say bluntly.
"I know that because Azuka is an amazing person and everyone likes him. Also, Azura is one of the most adorable kids that I know, and Rachel will love her. And how do you know that something will go wrong, you can't tell, so there is simply no point in having doubts. You love your girl, right?"
"Of course, more than I could possibly describe to you!"
"Well then, there's your answer." What answer, how is that an answer? "You love her, you need to show that, and I know you will. As long as there is love, it will work out just great. Ok?"
"Ok. But what if she doesn't love me back?" 
"Of course, she will, even if it takes time. Anyone who is close that doesn't love you is stupid and dumb. You are one of the kindest, most amazing people that I have ever met. I can tell where she gets her beauty from, if someone puts you and Rachel together, they could instantly tell that you are related. If she is anything like you, other than your looks, then she will definitely love you back, for certain. Let's just hope that she hasn't inherited the hot temper." This is true, I really don't want her to have a hot temper like me.
"I really hope not, but it does run in the family, so she probably has. I wish that I could go back in time and change the fact that I let her dad take care of her. He has turned his back on Rachel! I should never have thought that she would have a better life with him. He is a complete idiot who needs to sort himself out!" I say feeling my temper rising.
"Woah woman. Calm. Be calm. There is no point in getting annoyed. You thought you did the right thing. But there's not a point of thinking the 'what ifs'. We all think a 'what if' in our life. But we can't change anything. Things are the way they are for a reason. Yes, Rachel's dad may be an idiot, but if it wasn't for him contacting you, you may never have met her again. Not yet at least. I mean what kind of person turns their back on their own child for no reason. We don't know what on earth is going on in his life, he may have a lot of problems or something. But you have just got to be thankful that you have your little girl back." Wise words of wisdom from my amazing friend.
"I never thought that I would get to see Rachel again, so I guess I have got to be a bit grateful to him. But it hurts to know that he said that he would look after her and take good care of her, and what does he go and do, turn his back on her, so much for looking after my baby. I mean, yeah, he may be having a difficult time in life but there is still no reason to turn his back on Rachel! Ugh, screw him, he can do whatever with his life, I don't want him involved in Rachel's life, I'm going to let him know that. I won't stop her from knowing him though. It is totally her decision if she wants to see him or not. I'm just going to forget about him for now and focus on having a great day with my daughter." And I mean it, what is the point of ruining a nice day by thinking about something so stupid. I love my daughter. Love and happiness is all that matters!
Authors note~ A few people have wanted an update, so here it is. I am so sorry for not updating in such a long time. I have had school and exams. I kept forgetting, but I remembered today and decided to write a new chapter. I shall try to update as much as possible. Sorry chapter is a bit short. I don't know whether to continue this book or not, what do people think? Thanks. Xx