Secrets

Chapter 13 ~ Rachel's PoV

This is insane! One of the most amazing people in the world, who I look up to and adore, turns out to be my blood mum. Alesha has just poured her her heart out to me, and all I can do is hug her, and tell her I understand. I don't know what else to do, for my whole life, I have been lied to, I have a family that I don't know about. How many aunts and uncles do I have, do I have any cousins, how many siblings do I have? I am so confused. I don't really know who I am. I need to find out these things, where I come from, where my family comes from, their culture.
A knock on the door disturbed my chain of thought.
"Ali you kinda need to come back on set now babes. All the contestants are asking for you. Please would you come back with me?" Amanda says strolling in through the door.
"Mandy I kinda can't, me and Rachel have got too much to talk about. So no offence, but please could you leave us alone, and go back to flirting with Simon or whatever you're doing, I don't mean to sound rude." Alesha explains looking slightly annoyed.
"No, it's fine, I really understand. You have a lot to discuss. I will go back to the others and 'flirt with Simon' as you say." Amanda says, the last bit sounding a slight bit sarcastic. She then adds looking at me and pointing at Alesha "I am so glad that you are nice, being this ones daughter, I don't know how though, she has no manners at all, maybe you can teach her some manners." Giggling, she then turns to walk away.
"Thanks, Mandy, love you too!" Alesha shouts back in reply, laughing a lot.
"If you do want to go back to the auditions, it's fine by me, I have got a lot to process, we can talk more after if you do want to go." I say, it might be better if I have some alone time, then I can process it.
"Ok, if you would like me to then I will go. It's ok, you are bound to want some time alone. You will probably want to know about the family, so I wrote everything down for you. You don't have to read it now, but it is in one of the locked drawers, you can go through them now." Alesha says, passing the keys to me. "If you need to see me, you know where I'll be, and I will be up for talking whenever. Are you sure you want me to go?"
" Go, we have plenty of time to talk, trust me. See you later, we do have a lot to talk about, hopefully the thing you wrote down can help me. Have fun." I say giving Alesha a tight hug before she leaves, I need hugs right now. She blows a kiss to me, I pretend to catch it and blow one back.
Alesha walks out of the room, and I get up and go to the dressing table. So which drawer should I start with first? Left or right? I think I will go for the left. I get one of the keys and put it into the lock, it is not turning, I get the other one and it works. Instantly I see a small pile of pictures, they must be there for me to look at. I pick the pile up the one on the top is a picture of a baby with Alesha, on the back is a sticky note, saying Rachel's first birthday, Alesha is so pretty, she looks the same now as she does in the photo. The next photo is Alesha and little Azura, she is adorable, I can't wait meet her. I wonder if she knows about me. The third picture is of Alesha and a few other people, on the back it says that it is her brothers and sister.
There is not much else in the drawer, except a bottle of water with a not on the lid saying 'In case you get thirsty, Rachel'. I go to the other drawer and open it up. There is a bunch of letters in it.I unfold the one on the top, it is a letter from my father.
'Dear Alesha, Don't try and get in touch with Rachel, if she finds out she will hate you so much. She would never want you as a mum. You wouldn't even make a good mum, her life would be ruined. So leave us alone. We are fine without you.'
I read another 'Alesha, Why do you even want to get in touch. You are the one who walked away. No one can ever find out that you are Rachel's real mum, she would get too upset. Don't ever try again, I won't allow it, you can't come and ruin our lives. You shouldn't even say that she is yours, she is only yours by blood, but you haven't loved her like I have. Stay away, I don't even want to know you.'
My dad is such an idiot. How could he do this, I bet Alesha was really upset by this, and these are the first two that I have read, and there are several. I don't even want to read the rest, otherwise I will get even more angry and probably either punch someone or smash something. He is out of order, it is not right!
My phone pings, it is a message from Alesha. 'You probably have read a few of the letters. Please don't get too angry. If your temper is half as bad as mine then I know that you will do something that you will regret, so please try to stay as calm as possible.'
I am going to go round to my dads when I get home, I am going to have a proper go at him. He shouldn't have kept me from knowing my own mum. I am so annoyed! I grab the bottle of water, put the letters down and walk down the corridor, back to where the auditions are being held. I need to talk to Alesha, and tell her how I really feel about all this.
Authors note ~ How was Chapter 13? Hope you enjoyed it. I love reading people's comments, they are so nice. Thank you all. XX