Saranghae [m.yg]

Chapter 11

Little warning, there's some pretty triggering stuff in this chapter (about suicidal and cutting stuff chuchu) so yeah I just warn you because people get easily triggered by these topics.

You also might get mad and sad so have a sad song c:

And a suga collage!
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"Suga and Micha are dating!"

"They are sooo cute!"

"They're basically the epitome of love!"

"I ship them! Su-cha!"

I'm sick and tired of hearing these everyday, not only are they annoying on a day-to-day basis but it hurts me. It hurts me to know that he loves someone who's not me.

I hate you, Min Yoongi, but I love you.

Jiyeon knew I had feelings for Suga, she understood me and she kept saying that it's all going to be okay, that this nightmare will end. If it doesn't, she wants me to pick myself up and move on.

How can I move on, when he's still holding something I can't live without?

Is it even possible?

This feeling, is deeper. Deeper than a bottomless pit.

The rest of Bangtan were worried for me because I wasn't myself these past days, I barely eat and talk. I doze out all the time. I kept telling them I was fine, okay, I just had a lot in my mind.

Namjoon too knew, at least I think he does. I kept telling him I was okay. He would say I wasn't, he knew something was up with me. I even think that he know that I like Suga- I love him.

They kept asking what was it, but I didn't tell them. It wasn't important. Bangtan and Jiyeon nearly teamed up to know what was wrong with me.

I'm hurting, am I a really good liar?

I remember the day after me and Bangtan were all hanging out at the music room:

It was after school and I was about to leave when I was pulled by my clothes at the back and was dragged to a dark, yet dim, hallway.

I was thrown to the ground and I groaned in pain. Looking up, I see a devil smirking; Micha and her plastic friends.

"Annyeong, slut" One of her friends said. "What the hell do you want?" I asked. "Oh nothing really. We just came across you and wanted a little fun before leaving." Micha said, something in her tone tells me shit's about to start.

I knew it.

They started kicking me, pulling me up so they could slap me. They even pulled my hair around and took out their water bottles and they poured the water all over me.

They started telling nasty stuff to me.

"You were a mistake, a huge waste!"

"Your mother probably regret letting you live"

"No one will love a loser like you"

"I'm glad that Suga's with Micha, rather than you!"

"Cry baby!"

"You don't deserve to be friends with Sehun!"

"Sehun never cared for you, it was all out of pitty"

"They're probably backstabbing you by now, even Jiyeon."

"I still don't know why Jiyeon even hangs out with you. Disgusting!"