Anxiety and me
My hands tremble
My lips feel dry
The voices make me stumble
It feels like I'm high
It feels like I want to hide
It feels like I just want to go home -
Wherever that is
It feels like they're all judging me
My throat closes up
My heart heats faster
I feel like I'm flying
I feel like I'm drowning
Sorry
I can't look you in the eye
I can't talk without stuttering
I can't say hi
I'm sensitive even if you're just joking
My self esteem drops when you joke about me
And when the others laugh along
When you don't tell me your secret
I just feel so worthless
I'm not vile
It's not that I have no sense of humour
It's not that I don't like you
It's not like I don't know you were just being sarcastic
But you just make me insecure
It's not that I don't want to take a selfie with you
It's not that I want to be shy
It's not that I don't want to be proud
But I just don't want to show off
I'm fine?
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Surviving
PoetryDrowning in my thoughts Left with a scarred heart Abandoned by everything Abandoned by love Crashing into reality While my soul hits tragedy And my mind is still in the seven seas Thinking why you left a.k +++ This is my first time doing poetry. So...
