Living While Dead

Chapter 5: Conspiracy...

I took in my new room. it was kind of like a hotel room, but more white and hospital-ly.

there were three beds, a couple sofa chairs, a tv and a door leading to the bathroom. but it was like the room had been baby-proofed. sharp corners had rubber over them.

'not baby-proofed.' I thought. 'self harmer proof.'

I noticed a girl laying on her stomach on one of the beds, reading a book with her feet in the air.

I walked over to the middle bed and sat down.

"hello." I said.

"shhhhzzzzz!" she said, turning the page. she shut the book after a minute.

"sorry bout that. I was just getting to a really yummy part of the book. so what's wrong with you?" she said, sounding slightly British.

"huh?"

"oh, sorry! that prob sounded really rude. I just wanted to know what got you in this prison." she apologized.

"oh. uh...Anorexia...Self Harm...and..." I racked my brain for what the nurse had told me. "Suicide."

she didn't get to say anything for a nurse came in with a little thing of pills.

"these are your Anorexic pills. they'll help you regain weight to a healthy amount!" she said, waaaay to cheerfully.

she gave me the pills and a cup of water, then stood to watch me. I panicked. I could not regain weight.

I put the pills in my mouth reluctantly and took a sip of water. however, I kept the pills in my mouth, under my tongue.

the nurse beamed at me and left. and as soon as she left, I ran to the bathroom, spit the pills into the toilet and flushed them down.

I walked out, to find the girl looking at me.

"you didn't swallow them did you?" she asked.

"no..."

"oh, good. I couldn't figure out how to tell you without giving you away." she smiled at me.

"Oh! okay. well got any other tips for surviving this hell hole?"

"ohhhh yeah." she grinned.

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"truth or dare?"

"um...truth." I answered.

"who do you hate most right now and why?" Diana asked.

"probably my best friend because she's the one who saved me from suicide and broke our pact never to tell and got me put here."

Diana bit her lip. "maybe she was just trying to help..."

"whatever." i sighed. "she was my closest friend...she cut and didnt eat and was depressed like me." i give a half hearted chuckle. "we even had a pact never to tell anyone about the anorexia and cutting or anything. and....she broke it...."

"wow..." she said quietly. "maybe you should report her to our therapist. get her sent to this mental assylum too."

"yeah, but don't you want her to suffer too?" Diana asked. I thought a minute.

"its your turn." I said, avoiding her question. "truth or dare?"

"dare!" she said immediately, eyes wide with anticipation.

"well...ive been dying to have something sharp..." I said a bit tauntingly.

"and how do you suppose we do that?" she asked, a bit knowingly.

"well...what if we were to fight? and we were in the bathroom and one of us threw something and it shattered the mirror?"

"then we would have a lot of sharp things." we both got up and headed to the bathroom.

"I cant believe you! your such a bathroom hog!" I screamed loud enough for anyone else to hear.

"oh, I'm the bathroom hog? I can barely ever get a shower or pee! all you ever do is look at your reflection and mope about how ugly you are!"

"so youre calling me ugly?!" I screeched and picked up the tooth brush holder and threw it,

Diana ducked, smiling.

we both watched the cup smash into the mirror and the shiny glass shattered and tumbled to the floor where it broken even more.

I quickly reached down and plucked a shard from the ground, Diana did the same.

"what did you do?!" I screamed and marched out of our room to the desk where there was always a nurse.

"our mirror broke." I said. she looked up, horrified.

"oh dear." she hurried from the desk to our room and ushered us out.

"you cant go in until all the sharp pieces have been removed." she explained and left us in the commons room.

"hello." Tiana said. "how did the mirror break?"

"Alex threw the toothbrush cup at it."

"I was aiming for her. she called me ugly."

"you called me a bathroom hog."

"you are!"

"no, I'm not. but its okay, I forgive you and im sorry for calling you ugly." she hugged me getting teary eyed.

"im sorry I tried to hurt you!" I started "crying" too.

"that's alright, youre just upset because you in this place and not your self-harming best friend who turned you in." she started bawling. I tensed when she mentioned Ryder infront of Tiana.

"go with it" Diana whispered in my ear. I stayed silent.

"the friend who called 911 to save you also self harms?" Tiana asked.

I sniffled innocently.

"yeah, she's also anorexic. we were self harm buddies..."

"im sorry, girls. but I must leave now. and I think your room has been cleaned up. see you soon." with a smile she left.

and now Ryder was going to hate me more...