Forbidden Lovers

Chapter 13 ♥

WARNING UPSETTING CONTENT

My throat was dry so I poured myself a glass of water, and once again looked at the calender. I was pretty sure that I had a dentists appointment at some point this week. I dropped the phone in horror, how could I forget?

"Skyla? Skyla? What happened...Skyla? Are you still there? Babes talk to me!" 

Lily. It was today. How could I have fun on this day..how could I not have thought of her during every minute of this day?

I'm the worst mother in the world....

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I slid to the floor with shaking, sobbing tears. I curled myself in a ball and just felt. Every emotion was coming at me, love for her, hate for myself, worry for myself, sadness because I was remembering...

A year and two days ago it all started.....

"Mum!" I hollered. She ran straight through with a panicked expression, I was clutching my belly helplessly, wanting to help my baby. 

"Is the baby okay?"

"No! Can't you see that my fucking waters broken? I'm going into labour mum!" She looked worried as she yelled for my brother to get his ass down here, and she grabbed her car keys. I looked down at the floor, where my water had broken. It wasn't a pretty sight.

"We'll clear it up later sweetie, we just need to get this baby out! Waiting for an ambulance will take too long." My brother ran into the kitchen. We all left in a hurry, I don't even know whether we shut the door or not, let alone locked it. We all piled in the car and put on seat belts in a hurry, as mum started the car and sped off. Every few minutes I had a contraction, and it felt like hell. Imagine being on the worst period ever, and multiply that pain by a billion. And then by the time you have another contraction, it's multiplied by another billion. I was doing quick breaths like my doctor told me to, I wasn't looking ahead at where we were driving, but down at my huge belly. I rubbed it soothingly, maybe she was in pain? 

I was also holding Craig's hand, we were sat in the back. He kept telling me to keep doing what I was doing, that I was doing great, and his face was calm yet I must have been crushing his hand with every contraction. He got out his phone with his other hand and called someone, telling them that I was in labour. I didn't have to ask to know that it was Talia, I attempted to smile gratefully at him.

"She says she's on her way, she's not going to miss this."

"Mum..mum I'm scared. I'm too young, I'm not ready. She's too early Mum!" We finally stopped and I unbuckled my seat belt and Mum came round and helped me out. We all struggled through the hospital doors and Mum yelled at no one in particular that I was in labour. For about 2 seconds it was like slow motion, as I saw several doctors run towards me slowly, it was like they appeared from nowhere. 

"Have your waters broken? Have you had any contractions? If so, how many and how spaced out are they?" This friendly smiley blonde doctor was slowly walking me forwards, guiding me by gripping my arm, along with about 3 others, and my Mum and brother were the other side of me.

"Yes they have, um about 3, and they're now about 5 minutes apart." She nodded at me and helped me onto the hospital bed that was now in front of me, I hadn't even noticed us enter the room. She pulled my legs up. 

"When is your baby's due date?" 

"Um...20th December." She nodded, with a straight facial expression.