I got in the shower and did my daily routine . I got dressed in some black highwaisted shorts , a red crop top with a red and black flannel . I put on my nike socks and my red white and black 1s . I put my hair in a messy bun and added mascara . I added blush and eye liner . I grabbed my red tinted raybanz and sprayed perfume . I grabbed my red lipstick and spreader it evenly across my lips .
I sat on my bed . I can stop thinking about what he said . I took a deep breath . My first love is now an dickhead .
I sighed picking up my new iPhone 5c . I have a new number and everything . His number is saved in my phone though .
I got up right when D walked in .
"Ready ?" He asked .
"Yeah ." I said and we walked out the house .
I know I look horrible from crying so I have my hater blockers on .
We walked to school in silence . I told him what happened but not everything . About the sex and shit . I also told him he can be friends with Chris since there eachothers only friend .
We walked on campus and all the boys eyes followed me . Ion know why they like me . Maybe because Im not a hoe ass Thot like Chris called me . I smirked at the thought .
"There he is ." D whispered .
I looked around and my eyes fell on him . He's staring at me .... He has on a black long sleeve shirt , some cargo pants and some Lebrons . He looks fine as hell .
I looked away and kept walking .
"Alright noonie ." D said hugging me .
"Later D ." I said .
I walked in the building while he went to talk to Chris .
Chris .
I couldn't help but stare when she set foot in the parking lot . I mean look at her she's so beautiful and her body is amazing . I'm still head over hills for her but I know we can never be again . I swear I won't stop trying . She promised .
Lunch .
I sat in my usual spot and Im not hungry at all . I can't eat anything with this pain in my heart . I'm scared to go talk to her . I know Im a coward but she's intimidating to me . She knows how to break me .
I understand that I took it way to far but I never had a girl and ion know how to argue without hurting feelings . It's so complicated . I fucked up . It wasn't like she was getting his number or she winked at him .
He was on her and I was jealous . We need to talk soon . I miss my baby .
China .
It's hard seeing him walk around avoiding eye contact with me . I want to look into his eyes and I want to stare deep into them all day . I'm in need of his thick lips . His strong arms around my waist but when he said let random niggas touch yo pussy . That broke me . I can't believe he said that . I know he most likely didn't mean it but he's a big boy and he needs to grow up and think before he speaks .
I know he's not going to speak first so I'll give him a day before I give in . Ion care . I love him .
Afterschool .
I was walking and froze in my path . I saw Chris and Monica flirting ? . He was whispering something to her blushing and she giggled . Oh .... Okay . I guess we're really over .
Anger filled my body . I need to punch something . I closed my eyes clutching my backpack and taking deep breaths . When my eyes opened he finally looked up and saw me . He looked at me then her then me then her before he realized he's been caught .
