Runners||Carl Grimes

6. Borrow

•if you fall in love with two people, always choose the second one. Because if you were truly in love with the first person, you wouldn't have fallen for the second at all•
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A/N- (okay ik this book hasn't been updated for literal months but I'm going to start writing it again so tell your friends to come read) also I'm hoping after this chapter you'll see Enid a little differently
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Enid
I lie on head on Carl's chest, rubbing his stomach under his shirt.
The silence that filled the air became too much for me.
"Who are you going to be with?" I ask.
"What do you mean?" Carl says, confused by the sudden conversation.
"It was me. It was always me and then Willow came and you haven't been the same since." I say.
"I'm the same Carl I've always been. The one you knew before this place. I'm the same person you've played video games and read comic books with for years." He says, sitting up which makes me slide off his chest.
"No. Now we've grown up." I say, getting on top of him.
I begin to unbutton his shirt.
Then his pants.
As every clothing piece falls to the floor, I think about Willow.
He's hers now.
But I need to borrow him, just for tonight.
I'm not sure where she is.
She may be taking the kids on a walk.
Or at the club, not dancing with anyone because she's with Carl.
I dip down and kiss him, feeling her in his lips.
He doesn't love me.
But it doesn't matter.
Me and Carl are both too busy to have what they have.
We have responsibilities that take up our lives.
I slide my pants off as he flips us so he's on top.
He kisses me again.
I'm sorry Willow, I know he's yours.
"I miss you Carl." I say.
"I know. I miss me too." He says, whispering the last part.
"Let's do it." I say, right before he slides into me.
I can't stop thinking about Willow.
I don't want to hurt her. It's truly not my intention.
But he's perfect.
And I wish he was mine.
I close my eyes as I hear the back of the bed hit the wall.
Tears slip down my face.
Carl Grimes used to be mine.
Now he's not.
I hear the front door open and close downstairs.
"Carl?" Willow calls.
"Shit." Carl says, quickly getting off of me. My eyes widen and I begin to dress myself again.
"I'll be there in a second love." He yells out the door.
Please stall her Carl.
Carl throws on his jeans and walks out the bedroom door to her.
I sigh and finish tying my shoe.
I go out the window and climb down the tree.
I land on the ground and pull out a cigarette.
I promised myself I'd quit smoking.
I light it and put it between my lips.
This life is too much for me.
I thought Carl was mine. I guess there's always someone better. Someone prettier. Skinnier. Taller.
Tears are slipping down my face again. I don't even realize I'm walking until I reach the front door of my house.
I blow out a last bit of smoke before throwing the cigarette down and stepping on it.
Maybe I'm just Carl's cigarette.
He used me for a little while.
Then stepped on me like I was nothing.
I walk into my house.
Alone again.
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Carl
I step out of the room and get met with Willow's eyes.
"Hey Grimes." I say.
She rolls her eyes and smiles.
"You should get some sleep it's pretty late." I say trying to be leader like I was supposed to be.
"I don't want to sleep." Willow says, running her hands over my arms.
I smirk and laugh a little.
"Well what do you have in mind?" I ask, before crashing my lips onto hers and entering the bedroom.