Boom, Dead ; Muke

What I didn't see

2 DAYS BEFORE SHOOTING

I woke up and did the same thing I always did.. that was fall back asleep. Fuck that shit I never wake up on time. School may start at 7AM but I don't show up till at least 9:30-10:00. But today when I woke up, I had a bad feeling. Not the feeling that I had to go to the bathroom..

No, I had the feeling of a burning sensation in my stomach. I felt anxiety take over my entire body. My lungs sunk in and I could barely stand up because the pain in my stomach was just off the wall.

I got out of bed though and got a shower and brushed my teeth and did my normal routine. I quickly left my house, riding my skateboard down the dim hallow streets of England. On my way to school, the corner of my eye, I saw a group of people but paid no mind to it.

I got to school early. I decide to get a bit of a kick and smoke a blunt with Calum. We do this everyday but because I went to school actually almost on time.. I needed it.

I went into math class with red eyes. Some dumb bitch asked if I was crying. Same dumb bitch that tries to get with every guy. I went and sat behind the Hemmings kid. I don't know him and I never speak to him. He seemed pretty cool. He always kept to himself. He always had headphones in and he had his hood over his head. That's all I saw though.

I saw him sometimes in PE but that's because everyone would laugh at him. For what? I don't know. The boy is beautiful but he just seems like he doesn't wanna be bothered. Plus him and everyone else is intimated by me.

Later on in lunch I threw carrots at Ashton Irwin. He sat by himself and always had a book in his hand. He was my friend though. He just liked to sit by himself.

In PE I sat in the bleachers talking shit like always. Me and Calum sit back and judge the "jocks". We laugh at them and make them feel like idiots. They know to never mess with me.

What I didn't see is across the gym.. I didn't see Luke Hemmings angrily glaring at the jocks.

What I didn't see is he looked murderous.

What I didn't see was he held up his fingers like a gun.

What I didn't see was the pain he had in his eyes everyday.

What I didn't see was the bruises that scattered across his body from his father and from the asshole jokes.

What I didn't see is him becoming violent.

I was blind.