Lost and Found

Bad Boy huh

Sometimes you feel like everything is fine. Everything is okay; nothing is too out of place or is falling apart. But then you feel like everything is falling apart. You are falling apart and there is no one to collect all your pieces and rebuild you. You felt like if you were in the dark someone was there holding your hand and guiding you. But now that person left. You're completely left alone in the dark with no one guiding you. There is no one to catch you for when you stumble and fall. There is no one to give you a hand or help put down the knife. There is no one. If you killed yourself today no one would notice. Sure your family would cry but everyone else would cry because it's sad. Not personal just sad. Like crying when a dog dies in the movie and crying over a loved one. You would just be an ember in the ashes.

You are completely alone.

I guess that was what I felt like before Alec Daniels, and maybe that's why I'm sitting on the edge of the building and thinking about jumping off. Just like they say, 'all good things must come to an end.' And maybe it was worth it, to feel what it was like. What it was like to feel something other than loneliness. It all started like any cheesy story, with the bad boy coming to class late and the only seat left was with the nerd or the lonely girl. So here's the story of Alec and me.

"Alec Daniels."

"Alec Daniels," Mr. Burns repeats.

Guess the new student is late on the very first day of school.

"Ellie Holt."

I raise my hand, not bothering to speak. Why waste my energy?

"Are you Lucas's sister?"

I give him a small smile and nod my head. You get used to it.

Mr. Burns finished the roll call and began teaching us about English. Five minutes into the lesson and the door bursts up.

"You are graced with my presence."

A dude who looks about six feet give or take an inch. He has brown, messy, but a stylish messy hair. He's wearing shades, khaki shorts, a white vineyard vine short sleeve shirt, and fuck boy socks with Nike sneakers.

"Take a seat Mr. Daniels," he says in a monotone voice.

The only seat left was the one next to me. Yay.

"What's your name babe?" Alec says with his shades still on.

I hide my shock at being called 'babe' by covering my face with my hair.

"Hey girl who's sitting right next to me."

"Yes?" my ex-best friend, Emily Carter says.

Yeah she sits next to me and torments me. She sits a seat away from me so I can still hear all of her worthless comments. I don't say anything because I know her comments are just out of spite and mean nothing. She's not worth my time.

"I wasn't talking to you," Alec says in a flat voice.

Emily hides her surprised at not being wanted by a male by rolling her eyes and saying a 'whatever.'

A small smile comes to my face as I continue annotating Fifty Shades of Grey. I know, I'm reading porn at school, but it also has a story. Anastasia helps Christian Grey fall in love and enjoy life. I know it sounds bad, but who doesn't love a good steamy book.

"Are you reading Fifty Shades of Grey?" Alec says in a not too quiet voice.

People turn around to look but I hide the book under the desk in my lap and pretend to scribble in my notebook instead.

"Can you keep your voice down?" I say in a bitchy tone.

"Oh, you can speak?" he finally takes his sunglasses off and hangs them on his shirt.