Without You {p.j.m} [[completed]]

Day 5

Park Jimin,

Christmas will be here soon.

It will be the first year in many that I will be spending without you.

We were about to have a child of our own around this time, a few years ago.

The doctor told us the year before that we were unable to have children because I was infertile.

You just nodded and accepted it, but I could see the pain in your eyes.

We went home and I cried on your shoulder. You told me that you were going to the store to pick up tissues and candy, but I knew it was just an excuse.

You didn't want me to see you cry, Park Jimin.

You wanted a child more than I did.

We got our wish a year later.

A little girl! You were so excited, and so was I.

"Jagi. I want to name her."

And so you did.

Our sweet Park Eun Ji.

We were ecstatic parents to be. And the boys were just as excited. Hoseok especially.

We had moved to a bigger apartment with an extra bedroom for our Eun Ji. So many clothes and toys were bought.

All of the boys helped paint the room and decorate.

Remember the first time she kicked? You cried, Park Jimin. You cried and you cooed to her. She loved your voice.

Who wouldn't ?

We were ready to meet her.

But when the day came, we weren't ready for it.

Our beautiful little Park Eun Ji was stillborn.

I watched you break, Park Jimin.

We went home two days later.

I don't think either of us were the same afterwards.

I hope you were able to meet her. Is she beautiful?

I love you, stupid Park Jimin.

Signed,
Your Jagi.