never to fall again | bucky barnes |

#9

Your P.O.V
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"Do you remember them?" a question that can get out of my mind has slipped out of my mouth. Bucky looks at me with furrowed brows. " who?" he asked . " Your family," I replied. Silence filled the air for awhile, then I felt it was wrong to ask that kind of question so i  quickly said, " im sorry , Bucky. I should no-" , my words cuts off by his

       " I don't think I remember them all, all of it, the memories fade. I don't remember them, I guess."

Pity and sadness filled my heart. Yi should never asked him that question. " Bucky, im sorry. But I promise you bucky. I will help you remember them back. All of it. I will help you get through it." I said while holding his hand. "together?" he said, staring to my (e/c). " together"

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It has been a long time since the Sokovia attacks. I've read the news about it. The Avengers were battling with armies of robots called Ultron, maybe, I didn't know much because Bucky prevent me from read it till the end. He brought us two to Romania. I still remembered the day he told me that we both need to get out of the US soil. I was very terrified because i was about to leave my homeland, my family. He said, " it is for our own good, and your safety." He didn't say much.

We got an apartment, rent. Small. But cozy enough. No bedrooms and a bathroom. I understand that we are wanted by those whoever that Bucky said and that makes us need to stay real low, hidden, incognito from anybody else. I barely can get out of the place because he didn't let me. I learn a litte bit of romanian from Bucky since we are in Romania but still Bucky is the one that always get out of the apartment and the only reason is to buy us food, or buy some clothes for us.

I cared about Bucky, I do. He is special. I swear to my life that whatever happens, I am going to protect him even my own hands. That is the kind relationship that we have right now. Survive and protect each other. But mostly he protects me, cause obviously he's the stronger one. But I do help him, a lot. Mostly outfits. And how's the TV works or phones.
But that's how we live together for quite a while.
We're mostly talks about ourselves and I always try to help Bucky with his lost memories about himself. We talk about it usually at dinner or when we're cooking. Each time he remembers a piece of his memories, he will write it down. His journal. More like he's writing his own mind puzzle and try to solve it piece by piece.

I was reading a newspaper, and there is a fact section that explain foods that can boost your memories. Then there is plums, I like plums. Bucky was on the couch still with his journal on his hand. He was staring blankly on the wall.

"Hey , Bucky. "

Okay, he is clearly out of his head right now.

"Bucky, "

Not responding.

"Em , ground control to major Bucky please..."

No signal.

Okay that's it . I take an apple in the fruit basket next to me. And aiming to his head. I'm sorry, i chuckled.
I put a heavy force and throw the apple.
Bucky's hand moved and catch the apple right before it hits his head.

"Nice catch,,, haha" I said,

"You see, u do know u can just tap my shoulder or something, " He replied

"I know, I'm just lazy to go there, plus I want to see that superhuman abilities of yours. ", and I smile sarcastically. He let himself a chuckle and smirk to my sarcasm.

He got himself off the couch and make his way to me at the dining table , "Okay what now, (Y/N) "

"Nothing, I just read an article about something that can boost your memories, hopefully, hahaha you should read it, there's beats, blueberries, avocado, bone broth, plums and more."

He take a glimpse on the article, and said "yeah, I can try that. I get sick of apples btw. " He smiled.

That smile caught me in the moment everytime. I wish he could smile more.

"Do u have something in your mind? " He asked,

"Oh no nothing, " , I realized that i've been staring at his face for a long time. I hope he buys some plums, you thought while looking at the plums picture on the article. Damn it making me drools.

"Okay then, well I should go out now then, " He said while grabbing his jacket, his cap, and yeah most important his gloves.

"Oh, can I come?" I asked hopefully he let me this time,

"No, stay here" He said firmly.

I sighed , "Okay, stay safe though, "
He nodded, I waved him goodbye and said in Romanian, "Pa."
(Pa means goodbye, )

I watch him walk down those stairs until there's no shadow of him. I locked the door and have myself landing on my back on the couch. I looked over to the spot I sleep every night,  no bed frame,  only the mattress placed on the floor. It is enough, Bucky have done everything he could to make me comfortable. I appreciate that.

Soon, i slowly closed my eyes and drift off to a nice nap.