Rap God (Book 2)

It's No Longer Me That You Want?

2 weeks later, I was sitting in my living room eating a bowl of cheerio's. It was a Saturday morning and I was chilling out before I met a friend. The only problem was, it was Hailie.

Don't get me wrong, I was looking forward to seeing her, I hadn't seen her for about 7 months, due to our working schedules and I missed her. Although I knew exactly what she would want to be talking about, and honestly I still didn't want to think about it.

It had been 2 weeks since I had seen Marshall at my house and I hadn't contacted him once, or him me, it was like we never existed to each other. It was crazy that we had a whirlwind of a fling, and I felt so much for him and he for me, and then it could end so explosive. And over what? The fact that I had doubted him for a second, like he had me before? Men, they were more fucked up than women are. And then yeah, there's Zak. I sighed, he'd tried to keep in contact with me, but I just couldn't believe what he had done, I mean, telling Marshall that I was leaving with him? Who the fuck would do something like that?! I still needed to talk to him about that, there must have been a reason, either that or he's just plain crazy. but I guess I wasn't ready to think about him either, luckily he was away somewhere with Ghost Adventures and I could do what I intended, just to get my head back into work, as usual, and power through it...

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Soon enough, I was sitting in a quiet little café, it was 11.30am and I was meeting Hailie here in half an hour. I was quite early, but I wanted to catch up on some research before hand. I had a big job coming up, which was perfect right now, and I was throwing my all into it, more so than usual. I was flicking through my online portfolio when my cell phone buzzed beside me. It was Erica.

Hey Vick, don't kill me, but I think you might wanna listen to the new Eminem song that's been leaked...x

I groaned, no I didn't wanna listen to it, but it wasn't like her to text me something like that. I knew she was at work, so it must have been something she wanted me to do to text me like that. As I clicked onto my email, I realised my heart was pounding in my chest. A surge raced through my body as I clicked on the email Erica had sent with the link to the download.

A few seconds later, I was on the page, loads of pictures of him popped up on my screen, my gut still rolled over when I saw his face, I'd tried to avoid anything to do with him since what happened, I just couldn't deal with it. But needs must I guess, and I saw the newest thread at the top of the list, space bound.

We touch I feel a rush
We clutch it isn't much
But it's enough to make me wonder what's in store for us
It's lust, it's torturous
You must be a sorceress 'cause you just
Did the impossible
Gained my trust don't play games it'll be dangerous
If you fuck me over
'Cause if I get burnt I'ma show you what it's like to hurt
'Cause I've been treated like dirt before you
And love is "evol"
Spell it backwards I'll show you

Nobody knows me I'm cold
Walk down this road all alone
It's no one's fault but my own
It's the path I've chosen to go
Frozen as snow I show no emotion whatsoever so
Don't ask me why I have no love for these motherfucking ho's
Bloodsucking succubuses, what the fuck is up with this?
I've tried in this department but I ain't had no luck with this
It sucks but it's exactly what I thought it would be
Like trying to start over
I got a hole in my heart, but some kind of emotional roller coaster
Something I won't go on 'til you toy with my emotions, so it's over
It's like an explosion every time I hold you, I wasn't joking when I told you
You take my breath away
You're a supernova... and I'm a

I'm a space bound rocket ship and your heart's the moon
And I'm aiming right at you
Right at you
Two hundred fifty thousand miles on a clear night in June
And I'm aiming right at you
Right at you
Right at you

I'll do whatever it takes
When I'm with you I get the shakes
My body aches when I ain't
With you I have zero strength
There's no limit on how far I would go
No boundaries, no lengths
Why do we say that until we get that person that we think's
Gonna be that one and then once we get 'em it's never the same?
You want them when they don't want you
Soon as they do feelings change
It's not a contest and I ain't on no conquest for no mate
I wasn't looking when I stumbled onto you must've been fate
But so much is at stake what the fuck does it take
Let's cut to the chase
'Fore a door shuts in your face
Promise me if I cave in and break and leave myself open
That I won't be making a mistake
Cause I'm a...

So after a year and six months, it's no longer me that you want
But I love you so much it hurts
Never mistreated you once
I poured my heart out to you
Let down my guard swear to God
I'll blow my brains in your lap
Lay here and die in your arms
Drop to my knees and I'm pleading
I'm trying to stop you from leaving
You won't even listen so fuck it
I'm trying to stop you from breathing
I put both hands on your throat
I sit on top of you squeezing
'Til I snap your neck like a Popsicle stick
Ain't no possible reason I could think of to let you walk up out this house
And let you live
Tears stream down both of my cheeks
Then I let you go and just give
And before I put that gun to my temple
I told you this

And I would have did anything for you
To show you how much I adored you
But it's over now
It's too late to save our love
Just promise me you'll think of me every time you look up in the sky and see a star 'cause I'm a...