Love Exists {BxB}

Chapter 36

Jak's POV

We scared the nurse half to death this morning. She walked in and dropped her clipboard when she saw Rocco's open eyes.
"Oh my gosh! You're awake!" She squeals rushing over. She's been his nurse for the entire time and she's been really sad seeing him not making any progress. She's a pretty young nurse looking only in her early twenties. She has dark red hair and caramel eyes. She's taller than Rocco but still shorter than me, around Seth's height.
Rocco lets out a nervous laugh and nods.
"I'm going to let the doctor know so she can check up on you." She says hurrying out of the room, her heels clicking on the tiled floor.
Rocco groans loudly and lies back in the pillows.
"I don't want to be checked up." He pouts.
"Why not? They're just making sure you're getting better." I say.
"No. Well yeah but that's not all. They have to interrogate me to make sure I won't attempt again and if they don't believe that I'm doing better, which they probably won't, I'm going to end up in a mental hospital." He explains.
"They won't send you away as long as you won't do it again." I try to reassure.
"Yeah they will. It's mandatory for them and if I don't end up in a mental hospital then I'm going to be stuck here forever." He whines.
I shush him as the doctor and the nurse come in. The doctor is tall and average weight. She has blue eyes and long curly blond hair. She smiles softly at the two of us.
"I'm glad you're awake." She says pulling a chair up. The nurse quickly sits down beside us as well.
"Hi. I'm Julia." The redhead says smiling. I shake her hand.
"Jak. And obviously Rocco." I say.
"And I'm Sandra." The blond says.
"Okay. Let's move along with this. I'm not going to hurt myself again, you guys don't believe me, I'm going to have to leave for the mental hospital. End of story. Thanks." Rocco says sarcastically. Julia frowns and Sandra smiles sympathetically.
"I'm just going to have to ask you a couple questions." Sandra says ignoring his statement.
Rocco rolls his eyes and moves over so he's sitting on the edge of the bed, facing the two girls.
"So, how are you feeling?" Julia asks.
"Crappy." Rocco mumbles looking down.
Just as she's about to ask another question Sandra speaks up.
"Jak. I'm going to have to ask you to leave. This is a private conversation." She says.
Rocco frowns and looks up at me, silently pleading for me not to go.
I sigh knowing I can't disagree.
"Okay. I love you, sweetheart. I'll be right outside if you need me." I whisper kissing his forehead softly.
"Love you too." He mumbles.

Rocco's POV

Jak is forced to leave, leaving me alone to answer the questions.
It goes by pretty slowly with Julia asking most of the questions and Sandra writing them all down.
But one question makes me freeze.
"Why'd you attempt in the first place?"
I had been really hoping they wouldn't ask that question.
Tears fill my eyes with the pain of remembering everything Jak and Dylan had put me through.
"I-I-I... J-J-Jak and D-D-Dylan-" I can't even finish the sentence through my sobs.
Apparently, I'm crying louder than I thought because the door opens and Jak rushes in hugging me tightly.
"It's okay." He whispers running his fingers through my hair.
"Please answer the question." Sandra strains making Julia hit the blond girl.
I calm down as quickly as I can though my hands are still shaking and my lip is quivering and my throat hurts from holding back sobs.
"Why'd you do it?" Sandra repeats.
"Dylan kissed Jak." I manage to say, pushing my emotions and thoughts as far away as possible.
"Oh?" Julia asks looking interested.
"Dylan kissed me and Rocco saw and got really upset." Jak responds.
"Okay and have you been feeling suicidal since you woke up?" She asks.
I completely freeze at the question.
Jak rubs my back soothingly and everyone stares at me with questioning eyes.

Jak's POV

Rocco's answer makes me feel like my heart stops and my breathing shortens.
"Yes."
Just the one simple word makes fear and sadness and guilt fill my body as I look down at the sad, broken boy.
"Yes?" Julia echoes.
Rocco just nods looking down.
"And why is that?" Sandra asks.
"I've briefly considered a couple times because I just don't feel like I'm worth it. I feel like I'm not good enough. I feel like I'm just better off dead. Dylan kissing Jak was one of the reasons why I attempted. It was mainly because I felt lost and alone. I've been suicidal for so many years but I haven't attempted until a week ago because I had Hak and Trinity and Seth keeping me up and happy. Everything with my dad and Matty and Jak and Dylan, everything added up just pushed me over the edge, you know? I know I won't though because I know I have people who love and care about me and I know how upset so many people were after I ended up in the hospital." Rocco explains sadly.
Tears threatened to fall by the end of his small speech and just him looking up at me with his big, sad, broken, soft brown eyes was enough to make a couple tears drop.
Rocco smiles softly and wipes the tears away. I pull him into me.
"I don't ever want you to feel that way ever again. I don't ever want you to end up in a hospital again. Please promise me that you won't do this." I whisper keeping my arms firmly around his waist.
"I won't. I promise. That was the worst experience of my life and I never want to go through that again and I don't want to put other people through that again." He whispers resting his head on my shoulder.
"As cute as this is, we need to discuss a couple more things. I need a parental guardian here to figure out what we do with Rocco." Sandra says standing up.
Rocco's eyes widen for a second.
"I'm currently living with my cousin Ben." Rocco gives them Ben's number and they walk off.
I continue holding Rocco as close to me as I possibly can and I don't think he minds either.
"Are we... Are we back together?" I finally ask needing to know.
He hesitates for split second.
"If you want, yes. I know it wasn't your fault about the kiss. I know you would never purposefully hurt me like that. And I really need you, especially now. I love you so much and I want you to be by my side. So, if that's okay with you then I'd like to call you my boyfriend again." He answers. A smile makes it's way onto my face.
"Of course. I love you too."
And of course the moment had to be ruined by the door opening once again.
"Holy sh*t!" Trinity says her eyes widening and flooding with tears.
"Oh my god." Seth whispers.
The two of them run into the room.
Trinity hugs me tightly, pulling me away from Rocco and Seth hugs Rocco.
They switch quickly, Trinity and Rocco crying. Seth walks up to me looking guilty.
"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said what I did." He says.
"It's okay. It was mostly true so it's cool. Let's just forget about it."
He smiles and nods.
I look over and smile because Trinity and Rocco both look so overjoyed and happy.
We all are.
"I thought you guys had to leave today?" Rocco asks.
It confuses all of us that he knew that but we brush it aside.
"We were but Seth felt really bad about what he said so he wanted to come back and apologize." Trinity answers.
"And I wanted to make sure that Jak was okay." He continues.
"But I'm really glad we did come back here." Trin laughs.
"We should probably call all of our family and let them know what's going on." I say.
The pair nods and walks to the opposite side of the room, pulling out their phones.
I hand Rocco his phone and pull mine out as well.
"Hello?" Mom asks.
"Hey. Just letting you know that were all okay. Rocco's doing better. Trin and Seth stopped by and they're good too. I'm good." I say.
"I'll be down there in 20. I want to see it for myself." She says hanging up.
I can't help but to smile at Mom's eagerness. She was just as upset as the rest of us when she found out.
"Ben?" Rocco asks shakily.
"Oh my god!" I hear Ben yell from the other end of the phone.
Rocco smiles and turns away from me to continue his conversation more privately.
Trinity walks back over to me leaving both of our boyfriends on the phone.
"I'm really happy. Happier than I've been in what feels like forever.." I admit staring at Rocco over her shoulder.
"He's doing better?" She asks.
"Yeah.. He said he would never do it again and that it was the worst experience in his life which from him is a lot.. I'm almost 100% certain that he won't ever do anything like this again."
She sighs happily and rests her head on my shoulder.
A couple minutes later Rocco and Seth have rejoined us and were all just sitting in silence, feeling happy and relieved.
"I need to talk to you for a second." Trinity says suddenly. She grabs Rocco and pulls him out into the hallway leaving me and Seth alone.

Rocco's POV

"Okay, look. We just have to get something straight here." Trinity says sounding angry yet sympathetic.
"What is it?" I ask not letting my fears get to me.
"Jak has been a disaster ever since you know what and I just need to know that you won't ever do this again because not only did you hurt me and Seth a lot, you hurt Ben, Taylor (I think that's what Jak's moms name was..), Jenna, and a bunch of other people  and not only that, you destroyed Jak-"
"I know. I know how much I hurt you all." I say cutting her off quickly.
She looks at me questioningly, silently telling me to continue.
"I... I could see everything.." My voice drops to a whisper, "I could see all of you crying and I watched all of you slowly giving up on me.. I could see the sad looks in the doctors eyes every time they came and checked up on me... I watched, without a choice, all of the pain I put you all through... It was awful, Trin... I hated it so much.. And I just couldn't wake up and I couldn't move. I could only see you guys. And-" I stop myself not wanting to go into more detail as I stare at the floor, holding my tears back.
"Oh god, that seems awful.." Trinity whispers encasing me in a tight hug.
Jak and Seth wander out a moment later and somehow it turns into a group hug, all of us falling to the floor in tears because of how happy we are.
Were like a family now.
Were going to be together until the en no matter what happens.
It briefly crosses my mind at how weird we must look, a group of teenagers hugging and crying on the floor but I push it away because it's probably normal to see in a hospital.
"I love you guys so f**king much." Jak mumbles, voice full of pain, happiness, heartbreak, and relief.
"I love you guys too. Don't ever leave me." Trin cries.
"We won't. Were all good now and no one can ever leave each other again." Seth says
"Thank you guys so much for never giving up on me. I love you so much." I finish.

I'm thinking about ending this book soon :/ there'll probably be a sequel tho, no worries.
I don't know about you guys but I think this was a pretty good chapter. Sorry for not updating for over a week... Made this chapter over 2000 words to make up for it.
Hope you liked it :)

~Ellie