Love Exists {BxB}

Chapter 20

Rocco's POV

It's been three months! 3 whole months since I broke up with Jak.
Well actually 3 months, 1 week, 2 days, 20 hours, 15 minutes and 36 seconds to be exact.
I've hated every second since I said goodbye. His heartbreaking sobs, the way he begged me not to go, how the next day he stuck on a fake smile.
He lasted 4 days before breaking and pleading with me to take him back which ended up in me crying again.
He gave up after that and moved on.
I kind of hoped that maybe Trinity or even Seth would ask me what happened but all they did was glare at me or completely ignore me. Trinity actually slapped me once.
And now that Jak wasn't around to protect me, Dylan and Mitchell beat me up all the time, at least twice a day.
Matty decided to taunt me and became really close friends with all of them, basically replacing me.
Luckily, Matty and Jak haven't gotten together.. I don't know what I would do if that were to happen.
Ben has been too preoccupied with his girlfriend to even notice me.
Every night I'll sit in the bathroom with my blades and my pills contemplating death. But I always decided not to because I wanted at least 1 last kiss from Jak before I'd be thoroughly satisfied with life.
Luckily, Matty hasn't tried anything yet other than kissing me. I'm actually terrified that one day he will make it farther... again.
So, overall life just sucks right now. It feels like I'm way back at the beginning right after Matty raped me last year. The only difference is now I don have an abusive father and that I thought people actually cared about me but they don't.
Trinity, Seth and Jak dont even care that I'm always covered in bruises, scars and cuts. They don't care that I don't eat at all. Not because I have an eating disorder, just because I don't have the willpower to.
He doesn't care that I cry every single day wishing he was mine again.
I know I can't anyways but he doesn't even spare me a second glance anymore.

Matty backs me into the wall again.
I'm so emotionally drained that I don't even tell him to get away from me.
"Finally given in to me?" Matty taunts.
"Why do you enjoy watching me suffer?" I ask with a bored tone.
"It's fun to watch you lose all happiness and hope in your life to the point where you kill yourself. It's enjoyable to see the light fading from your eyes day by day. It's fun to watch you cry." He laughs.
"Your insane." I answer.
"Am I really?" He asks pondering the thought, "probably."
He presses his lips into my neck and sucks on it.
I just roll my eyes at him feeling no power to stop him.
His hands slip under my shirt and his fingers trace all my bones.
"Your skinnier." He mumbles pulling away from his hickey.
I roll my eyes again. 
"Come over to my place tonight." He says returning to my neck.
I hate giving in so easily but he can easily hurt me and he'll just come over to my house if I don't go I've there.
"Whatever." I mumble.
Slight panic courses through me.
His house means bedroom and bed and most likely ending up in me being forced into things I don't want to do.. Again. 
"I'll see you later, babe." He says trying to be seductive with his Australian accent.
He finally leaves me to slide down the wall in the empty classroom and bawl like the pathetic person I am.

I finally walk back to class even though I hate this class.
Math. The one class I have with Matty, Jak, Trinity, Seth, Dylan and Mitchell.
Just great.
I slide into my seat which is now 2 desks behind Jak, 3 over from Trinity and Matty, of course, sits right beside me.
I feel really weak and lightheaded but it's kind of normal for someone who's constantly crying.
I end up putting my head down because everyone glares at me, taunts me, laughs at me, or throws insults at me.
"Are you okay, Rocco?" The teacher asks after a while.
I nod but I need out of this class.
"Can I get a drink?" I ask.
The teacher nods and I get up.
I feel even more dizzy and lightheaded. I continue walking but my knees give out.
"Rocco!" Someone gasps.
The last thing I see are blue eyes then I pass out.

It's short and kind of a filler but whatever.

~Elllie