There are 8 smiles, 7 beautiful and genuine smiles but there was only my invisible smile.
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Have you ever had that sick feeling in your gut that's wants you to curl up in a corner and cry?
That feeling that wants you to go hide in a corner or eve...
"Bella! Bella wake up, wake up! It's time for you play with me before school!" I felt something small but quite heavy jump up and down repeatedly on my bed. I looked at the clock across my room and saw the time written 4:26 am, with that I let out a groan.
"Okay, okay I'm awake calm down Lizzy." I said with a laugh. Lizzy is a little cute 6 years old with so much talent and enthusiasm in her little body, when she grows up she's going to have all the boys running after her because of her beauty. I opened one eye then the next but all I saw was a blur of blonde and peach blobs, I reached to my bedside table and put on my glasses. I then saw my little sister Lizzy smiling wide with her cute pearly whites and beautiful green eyes looking at me. I taped her cute button nose and from doing that I earned a giggle, I jumped out of bed to walk across the passage to get to the bathroom to splash water on my face and brush my teeth.
I stripped out of my clothes and turned on the shower to the right temperature and waited patiently for the hot water to take it's course. When the water was ready I got in and let the water prick me on my skin I then took my sponge and started washing my body thoroughly, after 15 minutes I got out and stood by the mirror and for nth time I'm grateful there was steam covering the glass as I'm ashamed to even peak just to be bombarded by something so gruesome I call my features. I wrapped a towel around my wet body and opened the door just to be bumped by a little body.
"Rachel why are you running?" Rachel is my second sister she's 10 years old and very energetic. She's also as beautiful as Lizzy, the difference is that Rachel here has brown blond hair and ocean blue eyes with a mesmerizing tanned skin.
"I'm sorry Bella, I just really need the bathroom and you were taking too long so I distracted myself by running up and down, I won't do it again." I couldn't stop smiling at how adorable she is but then guilt hit me like a ton of bricks for making her feel sad. " it's okay Rach don't worry and I'm sorry for making you wait you can go in now." I said with a smile an she smiled back and gave me a quick hug and ran into the bathroom. I walked back to my room.
My room was almost my hide away place as everything in here was a mere memory or a creation. My walls were plain white but over the years I started painting on my walls and made my own design. I would paint anything and everything but I would mostly draw and paint about how I felt, how the world was, how society is, and my distant memories- the good ones and unfortunately the bad ones that never leave my mind as it keeps replaying every incident I've done. All three walls were filled with paintings accept one wall, I left my forth wall plain white with one word written across it 'Dreams'.
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I went in my drawer to reach for my granny panties and my plain black bra and put them on while I decided on what to wear today. I was going to walk to my closet when I possibly did the one thing I've been avoiding since morning- seeing my reflection. I glanced at my body with disgust as I loathed my body. Who would like to be a 5ft black girl with an almost dark Caramel skin tone, natural black and brown colored curly hair and the most unexciting colored eyes, which was brown. I wasn't big nor was I skinny or normal I was in between the skinny and normal, heading to the skinny side of life. I had freckles running across one cheek to the other and full pink lips- the one thing I actually like about my features.
