Smile ( levi x male reader)

Part 7

  Bit of fluff but nothing lemon (maybe) just a heads up this is a happier chapter.

"I need to get over this ,he's dead they killed him ,but why cant i get him out of my head guh it hurts so much .Him telling me what to do i must not believe it i have to ignore it no matter what ,no matter how much it hurts i have to get rid of him for good" you muttered to yourself, sipping the tea Levi made you before he left for a meeting with the scout regiment ,you stood and looked at yourself in the mirror your fingers sweeping over every scar that was butchered on you "so i'm still waiting as always the blade is in that fucking drawer just open it in then slice your done " you sighed " why don't you just give up i'm not going to do it " you said " hm " you laughed through his nose " weak ,your so weak look at you your pathetic and expect every thing to come on a silver plate m/l" you slammed your fist on the counter top " i'm not weak i'm getting stronger each and every day most of the time i refuse help my walking is getting better my wounds have almost completely healed all i have to do now is get rid of you " you glared into his red eyes " haha and how exactly are you going to do that without my help " he said " i don't need help plus I don't know yet but I will think of something don't you worry and if you think killing myself is one way to get rid of you then your wrong ,I know of many paths to take its just finding the right one and walk on it to get where i want to be " you said .Splashing water on your face you decided to go for a walk to the stables to see your horse maybe go for a ride.


"So when is the next mission " Mike asked "the end of next month ,we'll take Eren with us just in case and plus to see if he can fully follow orders in titan form he did well last time but got injured ,this time he'll be on his own no one to protect him unless he is seriously injured and unable to regenerate but still keep an eye on him like always "Erwin announced" i'm good with that so if i get out of control what happens " Eren asked" then we'll cut you out and retreat if it gets to ugly " Levi added " okay i'm good with that " Eren replied "any way what about m/l hows he doing " Hange asked " better than before his attitude has changed he's getting out more but I still worry for him ,he's nearly healed but his walking is still progressing so I take it he's not coming on this one eyebrows or am I wrong "Levi said " nope his mental health seemed to improve as well but still keep an eye on his behaviour not that I don't trust him I just want him to get back to where he was before what happened to him " Erwin said "that's good to hear "Levi added "can I ask you a question captain " Eren asked " go ahead " 

"well since I donated blood to him wouldn't he have some of the serum my father injected me with in his system ?" they all sat there in thought " hm i never really thought of that to be honest but if he does some how go titan mode what shall we do ?" Levi questioned " i guess we'll see when and if it does happen " Erwin replied " hey four eyes don't get any ideas yet " Levi added" oh no I agree if it happens it happens but I do want to take some bloods just to be sure " Levi gave her the okay to take bloods from you .(good question will titan/human blood make a normal human into a titan #askisayama)


"Damn i need a hair cut badly " you said your horse neighed in response " i'm sure mine will gladly do it " Jean said you laughed " nah i'm good thanks ..so did my man put you a shit duty " you said " yeah "Jean replied " so what happened or can I guess the usual " you said " ah well me and Eren go into a fight over Mikasa again I tried to be nice but you know what he's like " he said " hm I think you should stop trying to go for her shes a nice girl strong willed an amazing fighter but she needs Eren they've been together since they were kids there's no in between well apart from Armin I guess ,then just get over it i'm sure you all can be civil and not try to shit down each others throats " you said to him as he looked and listened to you " wow even after what you've been through i'm amazed at how you understand most things " he said " whats that supposed to mean " you questioned " well your brother tortured you for weeks yet look at you ,you stayed strong ,it may not seem much to you but to every one else you managed to stay sane " he said " so your saying if I wasn't like this I would be insane and mentally damaged " you asked " ahh maybe " you sighed " well I am mentally damaged Jean it may heal or it may not but I know this ,it will be a long tough ride to get to where I once was and that is my goal every week I get tested on how well I can handle stuff not many know this but it was mine and Levis decision but he wasn't as strong about it as i was Erwin had to think it through carefully , stress exercises ,pressure theories any thing to do with while in a bad situation each stage got more harder but the better I cope with them the more I can focus on my goal right now i'm doing good .but I still cry in my sleep i'm just glad I have some one next to me to wake me up and tell me i'm safe and that nothing will happen to me " you looked at him " just like how you were when Marco died jean I  heard how you woke up crying because you missed him ,he told me that he'd watch over you even after he died, I believe that and so can you if you just try get over Mikasa don't let Marco leave your mind or you will regret it " a tear fell from his eye " damn you are a way with words m/l " he said wiping them away " hey come here " you pulled him into a hug and let him cry " it's good to let the pain out "a tear fell from yours "thanks m/l " he said pulling away and wiping his face clear " your crying to " he said " like I said it's good to let the pain out " he nodded sniffling at the same time while you let tears fall from your face whilst brushing your horse .


"M/L WHERE ARE YOU ?"Levi shouted " i'm here damn you didn't have to shout " you said walking up behind him ,covering your ear with a hand " sorry I didn't know were you were and I thought you got hurt " he said running up to you and hugging you as tight as possibly "if hurt you mean by squeezing my guts out then your doing just fine by doing that babe " you said he let go "sorry I was worried " he held your face with his hands "i'm here know so don't worry " brushing your hand through his short black silky hair then brushing his sheer undercut made him shiver a bit " opps did I make you go cold just now or " you said " hm you did " he replied " want me to do it again captain or not " you said into his ear " damn your sexy when you do that " he whispered " that's why you love me right coz I can make you weak at the knees " he smiled " hm sorry to break the moment guys but m/l Hange wants to see you " Armin said " oh yeah Eren came up with a theory that you might have titan DNA stuff  in the blood he donated to you its just to see if you have or not its just a question he had since he was injected with the serum his dad gave him as a kid if that's okay with you " Levi said " hey any thing for that maniac huh but i hate needles " you said " i'll come with you " Levi added "okay lets go " you tugged his arm to Hanges office .

" so wheres my maniac i love so much "you said swinging the door open " OMG M/L YOU ACTUALLY CAME you look so good as well " she said " now now Hange only my little man can see my babies right Levi " he blushed and of course hange made fun of it whilst he scolded her "okay sit nice and comfy this will only hurt just a teency weency bit okay " you nodded " ouch fuck " you mutter tightening your hand around Levi's " yeah don't break my fingers though " he said " so you wont give me hand jobs any more " you whispered " sh-shut the fuck up "you said you and hange laughed . " okay all done should get results done in a few days i'm going to be thorough " she said " don't waste my blood " you said waving her goodbye .


You and levi both walked back down the hallway still holding onto his hand " are you okay m/l" he stopped and faced you " i'm fine just tired " you said " you sure " he asked again " can we talk I need to tell you something " he nodded and you both continued down the hallway to your room .

"Whats up "he sat beside you on the end of the bed handing you a cup of tea " its him " you said " who" he asked " my brother i see and hear him all the time ,when you left for the meeting he was in the bathroom with me but i know hes not real he told me to just end it when i got out of hospital he said there's a blade in the drawer there but i didn't look can you look for me " you asked he did got up and returned with a small knife " he was right then " he said " you haven't touched it " he asked " the first iv seen it Levi " you said he nodded "okay well i'm getting rid of it " he did " any thing else he said " he rubbed your back " no i told him that i'm getting rid of him just not the way he wants i don't know how i'm going to do that but i'm going to try some how " you said placing your head on his shoulder " im proud of you for making that decision and i'l help-" you sat back up " no i need to do this on my own you've done enough for me Levi and if it wasn't for you id probably have done it by now " you admitted he didn't speak for a few moments just trying to take it in " have you told any one else ?" he asked " your the first but if you want to break it to Erwin i don't have any objections " you answered he nodded "okay but any more of that you tell me okay " he said pulling you into a hug " i know i can trust you " you muttered he only held you tighter .

" now why don't we finish what we were doing earlier " you said " and what might that be "he said flicking your nose you smirked " ohh i think you know what it is already captain " you said pushing him down onto the bed kissing his neck , unbuttoning his shirt rubbing your free hand down brushing over his muscles ,whilst still on his neck "are you marking me ?" he asked you sat up on his stomach " hmm well Levi Ackerman asking if i'm marking him , you are mine after all " you said widening his shirt for a better view of his chest " stealing my lines are we " he said caressing his hands over your slender arms " damn right i am " you bent down kissing his chest moving down to his muscular torso making little bite marks as you did he made light noises of pleasure as you carried on " damn your so good at teasing me m/l" you said his breath became un even " liking it are we mister " you said "he couldn't respond ,you unzipped his trousers slowly "ffuck" was all he could get out " waiting for something " you asked " fuck your so good m/l" you laughed " dont come yet i haven't even started yet" pulling the trousers of him throwing them some where in the room without a care ,stripping of your shirt you bent down kissing him ,his tongue battling with yours you both moaned " lowly grinding you hips on his boxers he moaned even deeper both of you turned on ,he sat up suddenly and swapping his place to yours "don't let your guard down m/l " he said " or what you gunna do to me " you said " hmm let me be in charge of that one " he added you both got rid of the rest of the clothing you had on .

He turned you on to our stomach " if it hurts let me know " he said " okay " was your answer . You let him make love to you that night ,he was gentle as he feared you would break ,but you didn't you enjoyed it "its been a longtime since we did this huh " you said into his ear as he continued " yeah sure is ,i wont leave you no matter what m/l " he said "me neither babe" you replied holding onto him hands on is back pulling him closer to you .

The next morning Levi woke up still beside you ,he watched you as you slept never forgetting the moments you had with him .He stayed there by your side till you woke up " he morning sunshine " he said rubbing his thumb to your cheek " how you feeling ?" he asked " good much better than yesterday" you mumbled ,you moved closer to him nuzzling your face into his bare chest " that was some show you put on last night " you sighed " not you again piss off " you said " something wrong " levi asked " go on tell him im here " Riki said " just go away fuck sake to much to ask" you started to get angry " M/l calm down" riki laughed " you sat up pulling on your boxers and stormed towards where he stood grabbing him by his shirt pushing him against the wall " why cant you just leave me the hell alone riki you've done enough damage to me why do more "Levi got up and pulled his boxers on too " m/l clam down " he said" better do as he says " riki added" i'll kill you with every last fucking breath i have "you shouted "then do it " he said you punched him over and over again "M/L STOP " all levi could see you do was shout and punch at the wall " JUST FUCKING DIE AlREADY " he pulled you back and fell onto the floor ,you cried " weak as always " riki was gone ,a knock was at the door "come in " Levi said " is everything okay we heard shouting " Erwin said stood beside him was eren ,they saw you crying with blooded hands then looked at the wall " what happened " he asked Eren can you take m/l to the bathroom clean him up till i get back try calm him down please ,he did just that helping you stand and leading you to the bathroom " he's been seeing his brother ,telling m/l what to do ,to end it yesterday he said Riki mentioned there was a blade in the drawer in the bathroom m/l asked me to check and there was "Levi told Erwin "what did you do with it " he asked " i got rid of it after that he was fine till just now he woke up ten minutes ago then went ape shit at that wall i'm guessing he saw him "Levi said " im glad you told me i'll see if i can get him tested for schizophrenia if so then we'll see how it goes from there " Erwin said " he also said he would get rid of him just not the way riki wants to and without help "Levi added " he's got spirit i can give him that "he added .