"Hai" I hear Copeland say and I smile. 'Hi' I write and she reads it "h-i... HI!" She reads as Kellin comes in. "Hey I'm Kellin, you must be Scar." I nod and he hugs me "thanks for babysitting, bvb sws and ptv are all celebrating us joining the tour." Kellin says and I smile. "You don't talk much, do you?" he asks and I take out my notepad. 'Jinxx didn't tell you? I don't talk to people unless I completely trust them' I write feeling awkward.
"Oh ok" he says obviously feeling as awkward as me. "Oh scar, I was thinking about you being with Copeland and found something for you" Andy says and shows me a talking app. 'thanks' I type and it says thanks in a computer voice and I hug Andy. "You're welcome, now me and Kellin should probably go." He says leaving with Kellin. "Bai bai dadda" Copeland says and I giggle.
We play for a while until I hold her down and blow on her stomach making her giggle. "My twern" she says in her cute little toddler voice. I giggle and let her. Before she does she stops. "wat owr da wines on dour tomach?" She asks. "Shit fucking mother fucking shit!" I yell accidentally, not caring about talking to her anymore. "Yew sayid a ba worb!" Copeland cries. I calm her down and distract her.
'Copeland, could you do something for me?' I type. She nods and I continue. 'from now on if you see your daddy and Vic together could you yell Kellic?' I type smirking and she nods looking confused. After playing for a little while I hear a knock at the bus door. 'crap more fangirls!' I think. I look out the window and see that it's Jaime and let him in. "Uncwle Jamie!!" Copeland yells saying 'jay-me' not 'hi-me'
"You can go back to your bus now, I'll watch her. But first, Cope did scar do anything wrong?" he asks obviously not trusting me. "She sayid a bad worb" Copeland says and he glares at me. "Why did you say a bad word in front of her!?" he asks angrily and I look down silently. "Copeland, why did she say a bad word?" he asks sweetly. "I ask wat da wines on her tomach were" she says. 'Please don't tell Jinxx!' I type and run off the bus.
Luckily no one has come back yet so I'm able to enter the bathroom without anybody questioning it. I cut my stomach and arms until I hear knocking on the bathroom. "Scar please come out!" I hear Jaime's voice and then Copeland start whining "I bored!" I quickly wipe up the blood and come out. 'What's up?' I type and Jaime ignores me and pulls up my sleeve revealing my scars, new and old.
Copeland looks at my stomach confused and pokes it causing me to flench. I turn on the tv to spongebob and set her on the couch and go into the bunk area to talk to Jaime in private. "Why?" he asks and I don't respond. "Please tell me" he says and I look down. "I'm sorry" I cry and my voice cracks. "You're talking to me!?" He asks confused. "You know my biggest secret, I have to trust you" I say sadly.
"I guess I'll tell you from the start, just don't tell anyone. Only Vic and Andy know. You see there is this girl named Alissa" I say and he interrupts me. "The girl you bully?" he asks and I shake my head. "The girl you think I bully. You see she's been bullying me and...um...physically abusing me for years." I tell him the rest of the story and he stares at me in shock. "I'm so sorry!" He says hugging me. "I never should've believed her!"
"It's fine, what's another suicide note to me." I say then remember that I forgot to tell him that part. "What do you mean another suicide note?" He asks and I explain looking down at my thumbs. "I was about to end my life, but I decided not to give Alissa that satisfaction. I decided that so that nobody could twist my words around, like she did, not to talk to anyone if I don't trust them with my life," I say "actually unless I trust them completely, because I'd probably trust anyone with my worthless life" I add quietly and he frowns and says, "your life is not worthless."
I roll my eyes at that lie. "We both know that that's a lie" I say annoyed causing him to look at me with pained eyes. "I would never think your life was worthless" he says hugging me. "Before you knew the truth you did, and you thought I was a total good-for-nothing bitch... which I am" I say the last part quietly. "You are not!" he says hugging me tighter. "Can't.Breath" I mumble giggling "you should probably go, you need to make sure Copeland is home, fed, bathed, and asleep before Kellin gets home." I say changing the subject and he gives me puppy dog eyes.
"Could you pretty please help me?" He asks/whines and I roll my eyes. "Ok, it was my job anyway." I say running into the living room and picking up Cope and putting her on my shoulders. "Yay!"
