Sunday Morning with Adam, Miranda, Blake and Me~Edited

Chapter 37 Years scandals and Anger.

Months pass.

It is finally trip day and I have always wanted to go to Ireland, they all have been before but for me I have always wanted to go there, now more for my dad we have some Irish roots and I remember one year when he bought my grandparents a trip there. We spent a lot of time in Dublin because we could do a lot of non-water sports, plus snowboarding and skiing. We did something I never thought I would do, Helicopter flying lessons. We drove from Dublin to Blarney and we all kissed the Blarney Stone...but I wiped it off first. We also stayed in Mayo so I could surf, windsurf, waterski, wakeboard, paddle boarding! I love surfing; I almost got Adam in the water but his fear of sharks kept him from, coming in. I had one very close run in with a shark; I didn't even see it until I watched the video that they recorded. I loved watching it because they are yelling at me like I could hear them, they are all freaking out and I am just riding the wave. We also did some Laser combat, zip lining and zorbing

Days, Months, Years pass.

We have our share of scandals, I am cheating, he is cheating, we are both cheating, he is abusing me, and I am abusing him, according to the tabloids we are getting a divorce every other month, and I have gotten to love twitter, and have taken the Blake Shelton approach of just make fun of it! I have finally learned to shut out the outside world, I can run with the paparazzi in my face with pictures, Yoga every day is helping keep me centered and focused so I can just run! I have no proof that he did or didn't cheat on me but I believe him when he says he didn't cheat, just as he believes me too!

I love when we can go on tour together and we actually get to go together a lot! I told him once that I love that my job is not really a job because I can just pack up and leave when I want and for how long I want. Wherever we go I always get calls to book for makeup consults, I book those in the day and the concerts at whatever time they are at. James thought it was great because I am their official fill in bassist; I get to play with them more than I thought I would I found it funny that James seemed more excited about it than me or Adam, but that is probably because I love rocking out with James and I know he loves it too. I still get a lot of interview requests but we do a lot of interviews together, since now a lot of the time they are about me and him.

I still hate when he is gone and I can't go with him, Miranda and Blake are always a great help, even after all these years they know I hate being alone.

Today I wake up MAD and I can't deal with the world I go in the studio and lock the door I sing I'm a bitch and then I scream and scream and scream literally till I can't even whisper anymore. I can hear Adam at the door because he keeps turning the door knob as if it will magically open. I finally unlock the door, walk to our room I throw on my team Canada suit and think wow it still fits. I text Adam who is standing in front of me ~ lost my voice from screaming, I still have not made a choice when I leave this room I am going to the pool, when I decide I promise you will know, I am not sure I can train every day again without you here. Tell anyone that asks that I will be holding a press conference in 2 hours. I send Adam another text can you please return all media calls and tell them where to be in 2 hours.

I do not know why this is so hard since I am positive I made my decision about 2 weeks ago and I am pretty sure that was why I got my tattoos when I did. I got Mrs. Adam Levine as a wedding band, which took convincing Adam it was a good idea since he said below the belt and hands are off limits for tattoos for him hands and sacred and they create things but I explained why I wanted it and that even though he knows this is how I felt too, I explained that our marriage is sacred and I really wanted to have it there forever. The other one I got just above the right wrist above the bone I got the Olympic rings.

I walk over to the pool, and get in still listening to him talk.

"Babe you have got to stop yelling like that, you know you need your voice now! You have to be gentler with it. I am sorry Babe I knew this was a hard choice for you, but I did not know how hard it would be. I have some information that could make it easier for you; we leave for 4 months and then are back for at least 8 months! Between a few seasons of the voice back to back and a new album including some of our stuff hopefully and the guys have some things going on, so we have no time to tour, plus Babe you never stopped swimming and you do love it, do whatever will make you happiest. I swim a few speedy laps get out, walk over to Adam give him a kiss and head to the kitchen and get some boiling water with lemon and agave.