His Not So Real Love

deeply,insanely...

Ian's Pov 

"please , stay ...

I miss you....

even for this one night..."

Those words escaped my mouth as I kept on watching Maya's features closely. Her eyes hardened a bit with doubt then became warmer with sadness and as I held her tighter her brown orbs shinned like glitter. Her lips turned from a frown to thin line to a hopeful smile. Little by little memories of me kissing her flashed in front of me and I couldn't but feel warm inside. This girl is really the fire in me.

"Ian, do you...?" her voice trembled and I knew what she wanted to ask

"Do I remember?" I completed for her and she nodded like a kid then captured her lower lip between her teeth and held her breath in fear of my answer

"I am sorry for all the heartache...I didn't kiss her." I confessed remembering the heartbreaking emotions that were reflected in Maya's eyes as she witnessed that moment between me and Rose 

"That doesn't matter now." Maya replied in a small voice and rested her head on my chest and to that my heart started doing its own crazy dances 

"It matters, everything does when it comes to you and that's why I need to apologize..." I replied assertively because one of the few moments I can recall are me saying I love you to Maya, me kissing her and her being heart broken

"I am sorry too for the accident, if I just picked my phone ..." her voice was getting smaller but her tone was heavy with guilt 

"I was drunk no one could have saved me..." I assured her and hugged her closer if that's even possible and we both fell into this comfortable silence...No word was spoken, not a voice was uttered. We just hugged and reconnected silently...How did simple girl managed to capture the Casanova in me? How is she able to tame my player/ heartless part in me? How did she pull me to her and erased every memory I have of Rose? 

"Do you remember everything?" Maya asked cutting the growing silence

"Somethings are still foggy..." I honestly replied 

"Foggy so you don't remember everything about....us?" she questioned in a coy way and her cheeks blushed deeply...

"I remember the young us, our school, our not so friendly relation, your bullies, me standing up to you, then years of separation and Rose's wedding...Stolen forced kisses, me saying I love you and the heartbreak Rose and I caused you..." I summed what I can recall and as I finished May withdrew from my hands and looked at me questioningly 

"You stood up for me?" she re-said  with surprise and astonishment

"Yes, against Marcus...Rose came to me one day and said that he is bullying you because of your weight. I couldn't accept that and just faced him.." I explained to her remembering  our school days and how rose told me that Marcus was calling Maya a "Fatty two shoes". Even back then I didn't like such behavior. I may be a player but I am not a bully. I do not make fun of people and even the girls that I used to sleep with fully know that I am not and will never be serious...but here I am now a changed person. The same guy but I fell truly deeply in love with a cute simple goody two shoes...

"Thank you" May uttered and in a rapid movement her lips captured mine in a fast peck 

"You are welcome...So did you like your date?" I asked afraid of what to come

"It was nice..." Maya said but I guess my tightening grip alerted her 

"Nice." I grumbled and started to push her away from my lap

"He was a true gentleman, took me to a small restaurant instead of those big fancy ones and held my hand ... " Maya continued teasingly as she sat in my old place on the couch as I stood up

"Such a gentleman..." I grumbled and turned to look at her 

"He is great." She nodded with a playful glint in her eyes but playful or not I was jealous for sure..She has no right to go out with any other being ...

"Ha was ? " I questioned her as jealousy started to colonise my being and if she answers wrongly I will not be held accountable for my actions.

"Yup." She replied and nodded 

That's when I trapped her between my hands as each rested beside her head on the couch and I started to dangerously leaning to her. Her eyes grew with surprise but the playful gleam in them never disappeared...Her smile grew and images flashed from our kiss in the office...When I was so blinded by jealousy...When I was madly angered by one of her dates...Am I going to live like this forever, always knowing that I love her but fearing that others may take her away? Just like Rose...I liked Rose but never officially committed to her...We just had an on and off kind of thing but she wanted more...

"Be mine, Be my girlfriend." Words yet again flew out of my lips but instead of freaking out I felt calm and happy  "Be mine." I repeated and saw Maya blushing crazily and looking down in an attempt to avoid my intense gaze.

"I love you May and I don't want you to be anyone else's." I explained to her, held her chin delicately and positioned her head so she can look at me...I saw held tears in her eyes and I feared what may come...

"Even in front of Rose?" her trembling voice echoed in the room, reminding me of yet another scene...How stupid was I

"In front of the whole world...Be mine officially." I whispered at her and got this smallest nod. That was all it took for me to connect our lips together in a heated kiss... I love this girl...I love her with all my heart, deeply  insanely  wholly

"I love you too." She replied between taking breaths 

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