Shawn's right.. god i'm such a slut. I messed up.. i've been with so many guys off and on.
I walked downstairs a few minutes after i heard the front door slam. I had tears in my eyes.
"Samantha are you okay??" Kian said and ran up to me. "I..yeah." i said and he hugged me. "I know your not okay." Kian said as he pulled away from the hug.
"Your right." i said to him and all eyes were on me. "I'm scared." i said letting the tears roll down my face. "Of what?" Cam said as him and Jc walked towards me.
"I'm scared of living, and getting worse right now i don't even know if i will make it to 20. I'm so afraid that other people will find out, that the fans will find out.
People call a person like me weak and an attention seeker. Im so terrified of waking up in the morning. Im afraid of going to bed every night when i'm alone with my thoughts
I'm so scared to live to be an adult and if i have kids, i'm afraid that they will see my scars and think it's okay for them to do it themselves.
I'm afraid of gaining weight, and breaking down somewhere and not being able to control it. i'm scared that i've gone crazy.
I'm afraid of my thoughts i'm afraid that some day i could carry myself into moving traffic and just ending it all. i'm scared of how weak i am.. i'm scared of myself." I said and shook my head and walked out the door.
I had my keys and my phone and i got in my car and just drove. i didn't know where i was going, or how long i was going to be gone, but i was leaving.
Kian's pov:
"... I'm afraid of gaining weight, and breaking down somewhere and not being able to control it. i'm scared that i've gone crazy." Samantha said and shook her head. She headed to the door and left.
"Woah.." I said in shock. Me, Jc, and Cameron ran outside, but by the time we got there, her car was gone.
"I never knew a person could feel like that." Jc said. "It's been bundled up inside of her for so long, she finally let it all out." Cameron said.
Samantha's pov:
I was driving and i decided to go to the store to get something i never thought i would never need again.
"And what's the name?" she asked. "Kaitlyn Nicole Brooks." i said and she nodded. "Oh.. Xanax? From when your were 15?" She asked and i nodded.
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I arrived home, my medicine in my hand.. "Just be calm focus on anything but the guys." i said to myself as i walked into the house. I saw Shawn sitting on the couch..?
"Samantha!" The guys yelled and they ran over to me. Kian took the medicine bag out of my hand. He looked at it and dropped it to his side.
"Xanax?" He said and Jc, Cameron's eyes widened. "I never thought i would have to take it again.. but i need to." i said and Cam took the bag from Kian.
"Kaitlyn Nicole Brooks?" He said and Jc and Kian exchanged glances at the bag of medicine. "That's not your name." Jc said and i looked down.
Here we go..
"Yes it is.." i said quietly. "You told all of us, when you met us that your name was Samantha Lee Brooks." Cameron said. "I know i did." I said and looked up. "Why?" Cameron asked.
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I Know Her (Meeting Magcon Sequel)
Fanfiction"I know her man I swear." I said to Kian. "Cam we have never seen her before how can she look familiar?" Kian asked me. "She's probably a fan. " Matt said. "Maybe she is a fan.. But maybe shes not."
