Pain, Suffering, and Numb

Things

I have done terrible things

Things to make you shiver in the dark

Things that make even my own skin crawl

I want them back, to take them away

I hurt others, so badly I cry

It wasn't me! I scream

It was them! I can't help it!

Please, you have to believe me

The things that lie in wait

To rip me apart

To make me rend and tear

As they watch

It's the demons that lurk beneath the skin

The ones only freed by razors

Death is to begin again

Right?

They beg me to stay

I beg them to let me leave

I don't want to hurt you anymore

I don't want to make you bleed

No you must stay

You must endure

You must continue the hurt

No matter what

Do you like it?

Is that it? Do you like it you sick bastards?

To see me hurt

Or is it you that you like to see hurt?

I trusted you

You stabbed me in the back

I loved you

You loved me

Is this what it's all come to?

Lovely red swirls

Going round and round

I can't forgive you

You can't forgive you

You can't forgive me

I can't forgive me either

Sometimes I wonder if it was all worth it

Then I think of the times we shared

All of the kinds words

All of the times you saved me

I met you in a dark place

I met you with scars

Scars on both of us

Now where are we?

Right back where we began?

Or is it worse?

Can this ever get better?

I have to believe it will

She still loves me

She needs me

The last bird in an almost empty nest

Why'd you make me choose?

We were happy!

Why'd you have to choose?

I thought we were happy!

How could it end this way?

I'm broken

You're shattered

Nobody said it'd end like this