Amyplier Life

I'm Sorry Baby Girl...

Azaylea's POV
Me and Star had just finished playing hide and seek. We were hungry so we both headed downstairs. Once in the hallway, I stopped in my tracks. Star notices and turns to me. She pulls a puzzled face. I glanced over her shoulder and peered into the kitchen where daddy, Jack and Signe were. They had been arguing for for a while now. I didn't want to go in and see daddy. I don't like him anymore, not after what he had said.
"Hey!" I hear Star's voice say which snapped me out of my daze.
She grabs my hand.
"Don't look at him." She says smiling.
I nod and follow her into the kitchen. I followed her rules and didn't glance at daddy once. I caught him out the corner of my eye watching me toddle along with Star. He had tears in his eyes.
Me and Star got our snack and made our way back out. But along the way, I dropped my yogurt beside daddy's chair. It was right beside his feet and I didn't dare to go near him. Star stood there, unsure of what to do. Before she could do anything, daddy reaches down and picks the yogurt up and hands it to me. I kept my eyes away from his and took it out of his hand and walked off. Before I went upstairs, I heard his voice which was low and almost cracking.

"She hates me..."

I carried on walking up the stairs and into my room where me and Star ate our snack.

After a while, it was time for Star to go back to the hotel with Jack and Signe. I felt sad that they had to leave. And even sadder when I realised I was now alone with daddy since Amy must've left during the whole commotion. Star hugs me, then Signe and then Jack. While hugging Signe I heard her whispering to Jack.
"I don't feel comfortable leaving Azie here with Mark." She says.
"She'll be fine. Remember what Mark said. He's gonna try and sort everything out with her." Jack replies.
She puts me down and heads for the door.
"We'll come back tomorrow, Azie!" Jack says and he closes the door.
I nod and stood there for a while, wondering what to do next. I decided I wanted to play with my toys but then realised some of them was in the living room where daddy was sat. I decided to be brave and walked in. He was sat on the couch with his head leaning back so he was staring at the ceiling. I silently went over to my toy box and grabbed what I needed. I see daddy perk his head up and looking at me. He sighs and leans forward so his arms were resting on his knees. He watches me getting my toys and does a small smile. I closed my toy box and headed for the hallway to go to my playroom. That's when I hear daddy speak.
"Azie?" He says.
I turn and look at him. His eyes were bloodshot red. He holds back the tears that he has remaining and spoke again.
"Can I get a cuddle?" He asked, opening his arms wide.
I stood there for a few seconds thinking if I should walk over there and hug him. But at the same time...I didn't want to. I made up my mind and turned back around and walked out the room. I could hear the faint sounds of Daddy breaking down. I ignored it and went into my playroom, but kinda having a little bit of guilt in me.

It was now bedtime. I went upstairs earlier than my bedtime so I could get changed by myself and not wanting daddy to do it. I picked out my pyjamas which didn't match at all, but hey! I'm 3! Things don't need to be matching! I get changed and...wait....where's my stuffed bunny?
I then realised, I had left it downstairs in the playroom. Was it worth to go back down there and get it? HELL YEAH! I can't sleep without it. I made my way downstairs and into the kitchen. Daddy was there. He had his phone up to his ear and he was talking to somebody. I listened to his conversation.

"She hates me!"
"Look I'm sorry! I didn't mean what I said!"
"I know I went too rough on her! Amy...Amy, please baby!"
"I've tried! I promise you I have! But she's taking no notice of me!"
"Please no! Amy! Wait! Am-"

He pulled his phone away from his ear. She must've hanged up on him. He leans on the count and covers his face with his hands. I walked across the room not caring if he sees me. He uncovers his face and watches me. I go into my playroom and try and find my stuffed bunny. But I couldn't find it anywhere. I begin to panic! I did leave it here! I know I did!

"Looking for something?" I hear a voice said from behind me.
I turn around to see daddy crouched down with my bunny in his hand. I stare at it. What now? How am I suppose to get it?
"Here baby!" He says and hands it out towards me.
I had to walk a few steps to grab it. As I reached to get it, daddy uses his other arm to grab my wrist. He starts to pull me closer to him. That's when I really begin to panic. I pull back wanting to release his grip. But he only got stronger and pulled me back towards him. I began to whimper a little. Daddy hears me and shakes his head.
"Baby girl! I'm not gonna hurt you. I just want a cuddle." He says, with his voice cracking.
I lean back to try and release his grip, but his grip was tighter.
"Baby. Let me cuddle you." He says. He was now crying. I didn't care though. He hurt me. Now I should do the same to him.
I pulled my arm free and ran out the room before he could catch me. I ran into my room and shut my door and got into bed.
I soon fall asleep.

During the night, I hear my door open. I kept my eyes close. Footsteps began to move towards my bed and I could feel a presence standing beside me. I froze with terror. I then felt a hand on my shoulder. I could hear sobbing. It was daddy. His arms snaked around my waist. He was trying to pick me up. I pretended I was asleep and wriggled out of his grasp and held tightly to my pillow. His sobbing grew worse to the point he had to cover up his mouth the muffle the sound. He controlled himself and decided it would be best to just leave me alone. His kneels down and kisses my cheek. He stands back up and leaves my room, closing the door behind him. I opened my eyes. I could hear the faint sounds of Daddy walking to his room, followed by his soft cries.

Was I too harsh on him?