Am i Really....... (girlxgirl)

Should i??

I feel so warm, I feel so safe, I feel so complete, I feel like I found the person I would love forever but I still don’t believe that I’m in love with a girl. My body and my heart is telling me go for it but my mind was sayin something else. I don’t know what I want but one thing I do know I don’t want her to leave my side ever again.

Later on at school. Its lunch and everyone’s here including Tinashe and excluding Justin due to the beating he got from her. So it me sitting next to Tinashe then Ray was sitting across from Trish who was sitting next to Jacob and Prod sat on the opposite side of me

Trish: ok what’s goin on between you to

Tinashe: what do u mean by that?

Trish: I mean ever since u came back into the picture miss Selena over there can’t stop smiling!

Selena: is something wrong with me smiling?

Trish: no its the reasons of you smiling so much and that reason is sitting right next to you

Selena: you’re crazy you know that?

Tinashe: I think she was adopted

Trish: wouldn’t that mean you were adopted to idiot

Tinashe: no it doesn’t have to be

Everyone is having their own little conversation with one another and for the first time I’m actually enjoying my lunch hour. It went pretty quickly though and the same for the rest of my classes. I didn't even listen to what the teachers were talking about cause i was to busy thinking about Tin Tin.....i told her thats what imma call her from now on and she hated that name! haha all the more reason to call her that........anyway she told me call her Ash instead, i like it better but imma still call her Tin Tin just to annoy her.

Tinashe: you wanna go some where?

Selena: where to?

Tinashe: i dont know.....some where......i just wanna clear my head

Selena: whats wrong?

Tinashe: it's nothing, you want to go or not?

Selena: yea i'll go anywhere with you no matter what

Seeing her blush just looks too cute on her

So we wnt to the beach and it was empty which was great! for me anyway.......we got a chance to really talk and get to know each other and i as i got to know her she was slowly starting to take my heart and i can feel the same as she got to know me better.

Selena: so how do you like out here so far?

Tinashe: well the days gets better cause of the people in my life and the new ones i meet as well

Selena: really? so you weren't happy when your family moved out here?

Tinashe: honestly....no i wanted to stay in New york and finish my senior year and i didnt want to move away from my friends most importantly move away from...........look i just didnt want to move iight so can we just drop the topic already!

Selena: umm sure.......do you want to talk about it?

Tinashe: no.......

Selena: im sorry for bringing it up

Tinashe: why are you sorry? 

Selena: cause it seems that i made you bring back a bad memory from your past......i can see it in your eyes Ash!

Tinashe: well it didn't (lying) you want some ice cream?

Selena: ok..........i know you said to drop it but if you wanna talk im always here for you okay

Tinashe:........

Selena: i mean it

Tinashe: what flavor you want? (ignoring my statement)

Selena: Strawberry Cheesecake

I think she was mad at me now. I just wanted to tell her....yuh kno.....i here if she needs to talk, but i guess she doesn't at any point in time. She ordered her chocolate swirl and we were off walking on the side walk.

??: SELENA!!

I turned to see De (Demi) coming my way with Trish? how do they know eachother? i never introduced them or did i????

Selena: hey girl! what are you guys doin here?

De: i could ask the same

Selena: and how do you know Trish?

De: oh i never told you........remember last summer i went to New York, I met her and we jus clicked as friends so here we are now.....oh hey Ash!

Tinashe: hey De

De: whats wrong wit her?

Trish: must be mother nature knock at her door!

Tinashe: shut the fuck up!

Selena:........umm we're gonna go now so see you guys later!

They both said bye and walked off to do what ever they came to do. We decided to walk back on the beach cause the sun was about to set. i sat down next to her in the sand wondering why is she so quiet. i dont want to be nagging but she her upset.....i can handle not seeing a smile on her face.

Selena: what is so upsetting about your past that you wo'nt talk about!?

She kept facing forward towards the sun not saying anything, i couldn't take anymore so i did the first thing that popped in my head. I got on my knees crawled infront her blocking her view. So she did the next best thing and laid down on the sand using her hands to support her head. So (lol) i did the next best thing and got untop of her with my knees on either side of her waist. Her eyes were closed.

Selena: im sorry alright! i didn't mean to bring up your past i just want to know you better

Tinashe:.........

Selena: can you aleast open your eyes?

Tinashe:.......

Selena: please

Selly: do the next next best thing! kiss her and see if she responds......

This was the first time im actually listening to my concence........well here goes nothing

Lowered my self so that our noses were almost touching. i can feel her breathe in my top lip hoping she would open her eyes but still no such luck. i continued with my actions until...............

Sorry for the wait!

here it is!

enjoy!