Romano's Journal

December 17th, 2016

Saturday.

I've been laying on my side for about an hour now, and I only keep feeling my heart beat uncontrollaby. But, so cold on my back and chest as if there is nothing around it, a hole through my chest with my heat laying vulnurable in the middle. It is quite possible that I just need more closer friends, or miss the old friends I have had before.

But, the rest of me, my heart's warmth provided by my lovers and My blood rewarded by my family. 

I've come so far, I don't feel unwanted at all anymore, except by one person. I have a family coming my way, that I'm so happy and yet partly nervous to hold together. 

Perhaps it's just old fun memories that can not happen no more creating the hole, but better ones with my new closest people that are refilling it. 

Just a few thoughts on my mind, if you want a more physical life entry, then I suppose Buster has grown into a full dog, almost as big a german shepherd and more loving and adorable than ever! Have I shown Antonio him yet..? I can't remember. But, yet I will have to soon. I am marrying than man of my dreams once more after the...last time...

But, I plan to keep it and keep him, most likely to soon raise a little one and keep my dog happy. A beautiful family. 

Sincerely, 

Lovino Vargas (who's tired as fuck)

(I don't think I'll ever through a journal entry without cussing at least once.