a hidden lifestyle

chapter 8

Adrianne's pov
I woke up, got dressed and took my bike to ride to norman's place. when i got there i noticed his door was unlocked. i wasnt the kind of girl who freaked out right away but in his situation, i was building up a panic attack. i sneaked inside hoping i wouldnt find anything that could stop my heart. i saw that his things were everywhere. looked like a hurricane came through. it hit me and i was fully worried now. "norman? norman where are you?" i ran all over the place looking for him. stumbled upon his black cat eye. "hey eye. you know where norman is?" it was stupid asking a pet but i knew animals mostly protects their owners. he turned around and i followed him to his bedroom. i called out his name again. "norman are you in here?" he laid on his bed like he was dead. i ran over to him and tried to wake him up. "norman! norman! norman wake up!" he growled and i sighed. "what is it? why are you yelling at me!" i was shocked that he spoke to me that way. "are you fucking kidding me? i was in a freakin panic when i saw your door unlocked and you're shit all in a mess downstairs. i find you in your bed like a zombie and now you're mad at me? well fuck you norman have a nice day." i got up and started to walk away. "adrianne wait!" i wasnt in the mood for this fucking shit. i walked down the stairs without stopping and i heard him coming after me. i felt him holding me back and i pulled myself free. the last thing i now was that i tripped on the stairs and everything went black.

i opened my eyes and people were standing above me. "adrianne how are you feeling?" i was confused and my head hurted like hell. i tried to sit up but i felt extremely dizzy. "please dont get up. you had quit a fall i heard. you dont have to go to the hospital with us but you need to rest. you probably have a light concussion." i laid my head back on the couch and wanted norman by my side. "where's norman?" "i'm here babe. you scared me." i sighed. "what happened?" he came closer. "i tried to stop you from leaving and its my fault that you fell. i'm sorry i'm just not a morning person before i had my coffee. when you dropped me home yesterday, i took a sleeping pil and laid myself on the couch and fell asleep. the next thing i know i heard you yelling at me and i wasnt fully awake. i grabbed your arm and you pulled lose, making you slip on the stairs and you fell down. i wasnt fast enough to prevend you from falling. i'm so sorry." he was literally shaking. "sweetie stop. it was my own stubborn fault. i just cant handle people talking to me like that. there's a switch inside my head that changes me and i didnt want you holding me back in that moment. i know you would never hurt me on purpose. i guess i cant go to work like this." he chuckled. "i already called greg. he moved our shooting scenes so you can get better." i smirked. "both of our scenes. so that means you're gonna have to take care of me then." He smiled. "I'll take you and the bike home with my truck. I can look after ya if ya like." I smiled. "It wouldnt be so bad having you around. My dog loves you already. I'm sorry i'm taking you from your job." he chuckled. "I dont mind darling. You are worth my time. Let's get you home." I put the bike in the back of my truck and made sure she got in the car safely. I drove her home and shiba was waiting for us. "Hey sweetie mommy's back." I pet the dog and i could she was worried about me and so was norman. I was wobbly on my legs. He supported me just in time. "Woah sweetheart i got ya. Ya need to lay down. Ya can get worse if ya dont." I sighed. "Hmmmm." Was all i could speak out. He picked me up bridal style and placed me on the couch. Shiba rushed towards us and sat next to the seat. "Rest a bit. I'll be here when ya wake up." I nodded and closed my eyes. I took his hand and tangled my fingers with his.

Norman's pov
I sat there watching her sleep with her hand in mine. How could i be so dumb to let her fall. She was protective over me and i let her down.
I was worried that she didnt want me to be around her anymore. I saw her shifting but she wasnt awake. She was mumbling too. Maybe it were the painkillers talking. "Please dont. I dont want this. Leave me alone. Stop." She was having a nightmare now. I tried to wake her slowly so i wouldnt freak her out. "Shhht babygirl, you're having a nightmare." Her eyes opened and she jumped up right into my arms and shaking like a leaf. "Shht i'm here you're safe." She held onto me for dear life. "I'm sorry i was clearly having a bad dream." I chuckled. "Yeah i noticed. Wanna tell me about that?" She looked frantic now. "No i dont norman drop it." I knew it wasnt good. She needed to let it out or it would consume her eventually. "No i wont drop it. Look at you. You're shivering and you look pale. That isnt from the concussion. I know i'm gonna be in much trouble for talking like this to you, but i dont give a fuck. I care about you and i'm worried now tell me!" Her eyed widened. "You're not gonna let this go are you?" I shook my head and she sighed. "I was fysically abused when i was younger and i took self defense classes and shit. I decided for myself that i didnt want to be a victim and i never spoke about it too anyone. Not even matt knows this norman." I was suprised that he didnt. "Is this why you dont like losing control?" She chuckled. "Yeah i found bdsm not soon after and i liked it. Its been a big part off my life and who i am. I'm still human you know. I lose it sometimes but i try not to do it in front of my subs." I scoffed. "Then why around me?" She smiled. "Because for some reason i dont mind doing it around you. I feel safe when i'm with you and i feel like its okay with you to let my guard down sometimes." I smiled. "It's nice to know i'm doing something right for a change." She frowned. "Dont worry about it darling. Its stupid and you need to rest." She scoffed. "I had enough rest for now. I'm gonna get food. I'm hungry." I held her back. "I dont think so girl. Stay i'll make something." She raised her brow. "What ya think i cant cook? Watch me." I went to her kitchen and cooked her a healthy meal. She was suprised that i didnt burn it. "Wow maybe i can let you make me food once and a while." I chuckled. "You've seen nothing yet sweetheart. Stick around and you'll be suprised." She pulled me towards her and kissed me. "Hmmm cant wait archer."

The next few days i looked after her and she even let me. JDM came over a couple of times to see how she was doing. Even austin and andy called. People werent so negative anymore because i posted another pic of her sleeping recently. I wrote the captation.

'I'm glad she's okay. Healing from a concussion. My girl scared the shit out of me falling down the stairs.😯😲😱'.

I had fans wishing her all the best. People were really caring and still some werent but i didnt give a shit. It was time for us to go back to shooting scenes. Today was awesome it was gonna be the one i get out. The mid season final was here. Appearantly it was adrianne's character alex and jesus who got daryl out. He was impressed by this new girl. He found out that she was rick's sister and it looked like there were things ahead for those two.

We always had a break between season final too. When it had aired we had an talkshow coming up with chris. She was worried what people would think of her. It was good that jeffrey was on it too.

"Today on the talking dead we have robert kirkman, jeffrey dean morgan, norman reedus and our new addition to the pack adrianne palicki." Everyone clapped and i could tell she was worried. "Well i didnt see that coming she busting daryl out. Do i sense something coming up for those two?" She scoffed. "I cant say anything chris. My boss is sitting next to me. I love this job." Chris chuckled. "You have been known for playing a badass on series and movies which role did you liked best?" Her eyes widened. "Wow thats a though one. I did a lot of things. I had the pleasure of doing different things. Before the walking dead, bobbi morse was my favorite and now its alex." "How did you come up with alex robert? She isnt in the comics." Robert rubbed his hands. "Well i wanted something different in the series. She's a twist that no one expects. She has this thoughness that rick didnt have untill now. They are both the same in trying to survive." "How did you come up with her busting daryl out." "I didnt want just jesus. Daryl needed to be impressed by her in order to respect her once he knew who she was."

"I have some tweets about alex. @pamheshy wow i love where this is going. Love the new girl she's badass.
@aztypom damn alex is awesome. Maybe finally a love interest for daryl.
@zulaykeneath cant wait for february. They need to get ready to fight and alex is ricks new weapon."

We all laughed and my girl was smiling. It was a sense of relieve that people liked her. "You guys hear it. People want the two of you together on the series but its going on in real life now isnt it?" I smirked and fidget with my fingers. I looked at her and she looked back at me, stopping my nervousness by placing her hand on mine. "Yeah i'm a lucky bastard to catch this one." "All the female fans die right now hearing this." "Yeah probably but i dont care. I'm happy with her and she's awesome." "Well robert are they trouble on your set with them tangling into eachother?" I hid my eyes and she laughed. "No they're very professional when they have to work. They're daryl and alex and very devoted to their roles." "Well we have much curiosity in how its gonna play out in february. How is negan gonna react to daryl being out and the new girl on the block jeffrey?" "Well i think lucille is gonna get thirsty." He laughed. "No man i cant say anything but i think he's not going to be pleased with fat joe being dead and his soldier being gone." We talked about some more stuff. We had a question from the audience. We had a look at the next episode. "Thank you so much for coming out all of you."

I was so happy it was done. It was nice being able to hold my girl like that and without people acting weird. We sat in the car on our way home. Our sex had been awesome. "Babe ready for some rough playtime?" My junk was hardening just by hearing her talk about it. "Well lets go darling. I'm ready to take a ride." She bit her lip and i could tell she was horny too.