a hidden lifestyle

chapter 4

Adrianne's pov
I woke up the next day and got ready for work. I wondered if norman would still act like a jerk towards me today. I decided to ignore him just to punish him for being a dick. Maybe it wasnt a good idea but this was me.

I arrived at work and i went into my trailer. Something laid on my table with a card. I got closer and it was a box of chocolates. I read the small tag that came with the box. 'Sorry bout last night xx norman.' This was so adorable but i couldnt just let this pass. I went out the trailer and i bumped into norman. "Goodmorning adrianne got my chocolates?" I didnt want to show any emotions. "Goodmorning norman and yes i got them thanks." He smiled. "You know i want to go out again later." I shook my head. "I cant i'm busy later and i gotta go i have to be on set in 5. Thanks again for the box." His smile faded a little. "Okay next time then. See you later." I nodded. "Yeah maybe." I walked passed him and i really felt bad but it needed to be done. I wanted to say yes on that offer but i was meeting matt and i wanted my time with him. He lets me be myself and gives me what i needed.

I sat eating lunch by myself when JD approached me. "Hey sweetheart are you ok? You seem off today." I sighed and i was annoyed in how good he knew me. "Just not having a good day JD so i dont wanna talk about it." He saw me glancing at norman. Who stayed as far away from me as he could. "Its norman isnt it? I've seen you two look at eachother" i raised my brow at him. "I dont know what you're talking about." He scoffed. "Babygirl i know you. We had the same connection years back remember. I can see you are fired up and that means you want something." I smiled. "Yeah we had that bond until you married mary, remember?" He smirked. "You cant blame me for falling in love and as i recall you stopped it." I nodded. "Yeah she wasnt gonna approve us and i didnt want to break up a good thing and now you have hilary and a kid so i'm glad i did what i did JD." He smiled. "Yeah i'm happy but when does you're happy start. I know you've been searching for it even when you dont want to admit it." I scoffed. "I dont do love JD. You know that. Its just my lust and wanting taking over. I've had my guys and they turned their backs to me. Others just didnt do it for me and Norman cant even look into my eyes without turning red as a tomato. What if he's boring or doesnt fit my needs?" He grabbed me into a hug. "There's only one way honey. Find out if he's the man for you. I can tell you that he's the most caring man i've ever known. Maybe he could be the one who you stay with." I chuckled. "Thats highly unlikely. I never stay long with the same man. Right now matt is the only one and he's married with 3 kids and gay." He smiled. "Sweetie even if he is gay. If you stick by em that means you're capable. Just try it. If it doesnt work out move on. Like you always do, but i'm telling you norman is special." I nodded and we went back to finish some scenes. I didnt stay to say goodbye to everyone. I just wasnt in the mood for shit.

I got ready for my evening with matt. I was looking foward to it because i needed plenty of bullshit of my chest. I always picked him up from his house. "Hey simon is matt ready?" He smiled and kissed me on the cheek. "Yeah he should be right up. New guy huh?" I frowned in how that he could tell i was tense but after all we knew eachother for a long time now. "Hmmm its frustrating." He chuckled. "Please dont kill my husband darling." I scoffed. "Honey i love him i would never do that." He smiled. "I know. Have fun okay relax." I smiled and matt came with me to the car. "Ready baby?" I sighed. "You have no idea bomer. I'm gonna rock your world." He smirked. "Looking foward to it my queen." I closed my eyes in his words for a second and became calm instantly.

We arrived at my house and decided to eat something first. I couldnt have him faint when i was having fun. "Sweetie you never disappoint when i come here." I giggled. "I know. I love to cook for my men."

When he ate and his food settled a bit, i straddled his lap. "God i missed this." I looked into his beautiful eyes and i needed his body so bad right now. "Hmmm i long for your touch my gorgeous queen." I smiled and kissed him firmly. I enjoyed the fact that i was the one who got a gay man hard between his legs. It was turning me on more then it usually does. Maybe it was the fact that norman was on my mind but i couldnt tell for sure. I was completely fired up. I got up and started who i was. "Get up." He stood up and i unbuckled his belt. i removed all of his clothes and pushed him towards my bedroom. i took my black blindfold and covered his eyes. i whispered in his ear. "i'm gonna make you scream my name handsome." he already trembled beneath me and i loved it. there was a bowl of icecubs standing next to me which i took from my freezer. i placed one between my fingers and traced it from his lips to his neck. he was moaning from my touch. he wanted to grab me but i stopped him and strapped his hands on my bed. "tututututut you know no hands honey." i made it my mission to tease him and please him only him not seeing. i knew i wasnt gonna hold out long because i missed this and norman really got to me. i never let the men touch my skin so i had sex with matt with his hands bound in my straps. when we were done i untied hime and let him come down from it and i went to have a smoke. afterwards he came outside all dressed and hugged me from behind. "damn girl that was intense." i chuckled. "yeah i needed that. i was pumped up." he smiled. "there was something different with you this time. it has always been good but now it was more. you were thinking about him werent you?" i blushed and i never blush and he saw that. "wow sweetheart he has really got to you. Why arent you with him doing that instead of me?" I brought up my shoulders. "He pushed me away last night and today he gave me chocolates. He's so confusing that i dont know what to do with him." He chuckled. "Sounds like you really like the guy. Sweetie i love doing this and i love you but you clearly have something to work out." I sighed and i nodded. "Come on handsome lets get you back to your husband." He smiled kissed me gently and we went downstairs to the car.

When i dropped him off, he gave me his look like he always did when i knew he was right about something. "Sweetie i know you for a very long time now to see that you act different. He's on your mind and you cant shake em off. This is the first time you've blushed since ever. Make it work hun. I love you and we will support you." I smiled and said goodbye.
When i got home, i gave my dog and cat some food and went to sleep.

The next day it was working time again. I was nervous to bump into norman. I dont get nervous so this was all new to me. I parked my car and i brought my dog with me today. I asked greg if i could and he said yes. Lauren came running to me and pet my dog. "Wow such a gorgeous dog whats its name?" I smiled. "This girl is shiba and she's my baby." Lauren ruffled in her fur and she loved it. She was good with women. With men not so much. Andy came closer and she started to growl. "Sorry andy. She just doesnt like men that much." He stepped back. "Its ok love see you on set later." I nodded and he and lauren left. I went into my trailer and just as i was about to change, i heard a knock on my door. "Hey adrianne can i come in?" I knew who it was but it really wasnt a good time. I couldnt just leave him now could i? "Sure come in." He walked in and i was suprised shiba didnt react with him. "Hmmmmm thats new." He frowned. "What is?" I chuckled. "That my girl over there doesnt growl at you." He turned around and saw her large ass lying on the sofa. "Wow thats shiba? Pretty dog." I scoffed. "Dont say that too much. It will go to her head. What do you want norman?" He was taken back of what i asked. "Euhhmm i just wanted too... there's this thing going on Saturday and... maybe you're..." i felt for him struggling in his words. I decided to help him out a bit. "If i wanna come with you to the thing? Thats what you wanna ask me?" I smirked and he sighed and smiled. "Yeah?" It was so adorable that he wasnt sure about himself. "Sure i'll go with you. I'll pick you up. What time do we need to go?" He was actually suprised that i wanted to go with him. "Euhm 7?" I nodded. "Ok but we're getting a bite to eat first then." He smiled and walked to my dog. "No norman please dont. She's not into men." Before i knew it he was petting her. "Wow does that make me a woman or gay then?" He smirked. "Stop! she usually gets weird around men but she lets you get very close. She was growling to andy earlier." He smirked again and left. Maybe jeffrey could be right about norman being special. I couldnt hardly wait to find out.