Tears ran down my face silently, in salty rivulets. I had almost killed him. Again. I was turning into a demon. I didn't want to be BILL!
I looked back up at him. His eye was still wide with fear and his expression was cautious. Only a villain would attack something as helpless as Bill. Only Bill would attack something as helpless as Bill.
I remembered what he used to be. What even was he anymore? He used to be so powerful. So evil. So sure of himself. That terrified, defenseless, cautious triangle was not Bill.
Was it the void? Or the confinement he must be feeling? He used to be able to go anywhere. Now he's...trapped.
Or was it my fault? Did I make him that way?
I remembered the second of his dreams. The one where I had him on a chain. He'd seemed so scared. Back when I first met Bill, it seemed like having him fear me would be great. He used to be...still was the most obnoxious living creature I'd ever met.
But now that he did fear me...I realized that I didn't want him to. I didn't want to be feared by anyone.
I felt dangerous. I didn't want Bill to be scared of me. I reached out to him carefully. He took a few steps back, still trembling.
"Bill..." I choked back tears. "I didn't mean to... you just... I won't hurt you."
"You called me tiny. You called me stupid. You called me pathetic."
He didn't even seem angry. Just scared. Surprised. Sad. Those were his words. Those were the kind of things he used to call me. I imagined how it must have felt for him to hear them used against him.
That's when impulse took over again. My worst enemy.
I just wanted to feel better. I just wanted him to feel better. I just wanted him to stop looking so sad. Bill shouldn't be sad...
I hugged him. I grabbed him and I wrapped my arms around him tight, tears still streaming down my face. He felt like a brick wall, but I didn't care. I needed him to know. I needed him to accept that I wasn't a threat. He squirmed in my arms, trying (but failing) to break free.
"WHAT IN THE NAME OF THE AXOLOTL DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING YOU F***ING FLESHBAG?!?!? GET THE HELL OFF OF ME!!!"
I didn't get the hell off of him. I hugged him even tighter. This time I was smiling.
That was what Bill Cipher would have said. He was back.
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The Lemon Meringue Boy
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