Start Over

CONNORS POV

"Oh Connor" Arianna said as she stroked my cheek. We got closer and closer until we were only inches apart. I grabbed her waist as both of our breathing got faster. I leaned in and kissed her oh so soft lips. After a few heavenly seconds, that were full of spark, we pulled apart. "Connor, Connor!" Arianna screamed. What?

*reality*

"Connor,Connor!" Clara screamed. I opened my eyes and looked at her. "Um, sorry.." I mumbled feeling dissapointed. She wasn't Arianna, and she never would be. "I have to go now, bye love" she said as she kissed me. No spark. "Bye" I said unpuporsefully bluntly. Clara gave me a questioned look but shook it off and left.

I sat there. Feeling empty. Usually I would feel sad that Clara had just left, but lately that hadn't been happening. Ever since the dream of Arianna kissing me, I haven't been interested in Clara. Or anyone really, except Arianna. Whenever ARIANNA left, I felt sad . Like I had left my body. It was killing me, not being able to just smash my lips onto hers. The urge was getting stronger day by day. The more I had that dream, the more I wanted Arianna. The more I had that dream, the less I wanted Clara.

I suddenly felt a vibration coming from my pocket, it was my phone. I unlocked it and looked at my new text.

Brad: hey man, can u give me that chain message Clara was sending round, I wanna send it to my mum to annoy her, she hates those things! 😂

Me: yh sure

I pasted and copied it and sent it. It was too late before I had realised what id done.

Me: I love her and I can't even have her, the longing for her lips on mine is unbearable. I want her SO much.

Brad: what? That's not the message? Who are u speaking about, ur dating Clara!

What had I done I needed to think of a response. I thought that the last thing I had copied was the chain message but it obviously wasn't. As strange as it sounds, I like writing my feelings down sometimes.

Me: I had written that when I first met Clara. She found it the other day and copied and pasted it so she could send it to herself as a memory.

Gosh that sounds so stupid! He's gonna be into me, but I'll have to just go with it.

Brad: awh con! U really love her! But can seriously send me that message?

I sent him the message and said I had to go. I didn't need to go, but I was feeling to awkward to carry on the conversation. Back to my thoughts about Arianna.