Start Over

Awkwardness and Pain

ARIANNAS POV

It had been 7 days of being completely ignored. Even though we were in the same house neither one of us dared to speak. At dinner we'd sit across from each other. Not a word. When we watched TV we'd sit next to each other. Not a word. As we crossed each other in the hallway. Not a word. The most we contacted was Clara rolling her eyes. Awkward wasn't even a good enough word to describe it.

I scrolled through my twitter. People had been saying rude stuff all week: "why isn't brad and Connor making videos? It's your fault isn't it?!" Or "why are you stopping then making videos!" Or even "go kill yourself, your stopping Connor and Brads career!" I couldn't take it anymore, one more go kill yourself comment and id snap. Then I saw one more...snap. Tears streamed down my face as I curled up in a ball. My life was a misery. I had no purpose.. There was one thing I could do..cut.

The dish towel was on my lap so my jeans wouldn't get blood on them. The blade was sharp. I was ready. Slowly, I dug the razor blade into my skin. Pain flooded over me. At first there were only a few drops of blood but as I got deeper the blood came out as if my wrist was a tap. I quickly pulled the razor blade out which made the pain worse. Never had I EVER been in so much pain! Tears came over me and I sobbed and sobbed. I grabbed the towel and tightly held it against my newly cut wrist. There was still blood coming out.

*a few minutes later*

For a few minutes (even though it felt like forever) I held in my screams of pain. But as more blood rushed out I couldn't hold it in. I had to scream before I lost my strength to the bleeding. "CLARA HELP!" For once, she came running out of her room. When she saw the blood her eyes got wide and picked me up bridal style. "Keeping holding into your wrist" she whispered as tears ran out of her eyes. She hurried us over to the car and made sure u was buckled in safely. Then she went round to her seat, wiped her tears out of her eyes and started driving to the hospital. "Keep holding on..." She kept whispering. But I was finding it hard. I was losing strength...and the will to live.

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That was dramatic wasn't it?! If you liked this chapter plz vote and comment. Till then bye x