Let Him Go (Completed)

Chapter 12 : Second Chance

For God's sake I was sweating and shocked. He just asked for the second chance to me, I thought he already had another perfect girlfriend in his real life. And to be honest, I did still love him and miss him. I missed to be with him.

Patricia: "I wish you can keep your promises. And yes. sure. of course!"

Nathan: "holy shit."

Renee: "omg! awww"

Patricia: "holy shit?! lol"

Brandon: "This is emotional. I have to leave"

It was funny to know Brandon got too emotional to see me and Nathan. He left the group chat for a while and came back. Afterwards, we talked about cute things together even marriage and mature stuff. It was lame to talk about hooking up in a group chat, we couldn't do it. We only imagined it instead. Renee and Brandon left the group chat because Renee said she had something private to talk about with Brandon. It was only me and Nathan, we both awkwardly talked to each other and saying cute things as we used to say. I was glad to be with Nathan. Again.

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It was holiday and it was so close to Christmas. Everyone bought many things for Christmas and I could feel the atmosphere of Christmas Eve. Even though I didn't celebrate Christmas, I liked seeing people who celebrate Christmas with their family and the moment when they open the gifts and stuff. Renee got new stuff for Christmas and so did Phoenix. Phoenix uploaded what he got from Christmas. He got a new phone and I noticed him with new look. He got thinner than before and pretty looked muscular. I became overthink again. Whenever I see the newest picture from Phoenix on instagram, it always made me miss the things we used to do when we first met. I want those things happen again now but I know it won't. And I didn't wanna disappoint Nathan because I could see how true his love was for me. A guy like him asked for my second chance was truly weird for me. It made me love him more but only seeing new picture from Phoenix on instagram made me like him more and more. I couldn't declare what I'm actually feeling because I thought I didn't deserve him since I was just being an indecisive girl.

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Christmas was over and I went out of town where my sister and father worked with my mom by train. I parked my car in the train station and left it for 3 days. I went out of town by train and it took approximately 3 hours to get there. I tried to talk to Nathan when I was on the train but it said 's'. Maybe he turned off his phone or something. But we had a fight in the day before because he was so cold when I asked him how he was doing and he didn't talk as much as he used to. He was very different. I told him,

"Off to Jakarta and where are you??!"

He only read it without saying anything. I got pissed off and deleted his contact but when I was on the train, I was overthinking and I realized that I should have not be that mad to him maybe he had problem with something. I was just being introvert and didn't have the urge to ask what happened to him. I added his contact again then messaged him but he hadn't replied. I wish I could go back in time and fix it all.