Let Him Go (Completed)

Chapter 17 : For The Better

(FINAL CHAPTER)

"Do you love Nathan?" Phoenix asked me all of a sudden

That was the hardest question in my whole life. I loved Nathan, I did. But he's nowhere to be reached now. He acted different and he seemed pushing me away.

But all I know, all I want right now is Phoenix. The guy that I've fallen in love with in the first place.

He still looked at me waiting for me to answer hid question as he squeezed my shoulders.

"Answer me," Phoenix frowned as he shook his head. "Please"

"No," I closed my eyes as I sighed heavily.

What the hell did I just say? The feeling of guilt and desire are at once. I never meant to say no but I think it was my subconscious that said so.

I think I couldn't fix my relationship with Nathan. He hadn't messaged me and let me being depressed over this situation. My head was like about to explode, my face completely turned into tomato.

I opened my eyes as I saw his face was only a few inches from mine with his eyes closed. I could feel his breath as it smelled like mint. Our face got closer and our forehead finally touched to one another where our nose and lips were still a few inches away from the touch of our forehead. We sighed as we pushed ourselves slowly for a few inches. He stared at my eyes deeply as he put the strand of my hair into the back of my ear. He wiped my tears as he caressed my cheeks with both of his hands. Both of his hands suddenly landed under my jaw as he leaned in and pulled me closer. I closed my eyes and I felt my lower lip was pressed into his upper lip. It was tender as if you eat melted marshmallow and you just want to chew it over and over again. I felt shivers down on my spine when I eventually felt his tongue was intertwined with mine. He put his hands on my back and pulled me in closer and closer as his hands landed around my waist. I put my hands around his neck and stroke his hair. We suddenly stopped when he slowly pushed his lips away from mine and followed to my ear then he gently whispered to my ear, "I love you"

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I heard someone laughing out loud, I opened my eyes as I rubbed it twice. I saw a guy who looked like Brandon was playing cards with his family. My mom was still sleeping next to me and I just realized that it was all just a dream.

Phoenix kissed me on the lips

in my dream.

I wiped my face and stared at the window thinking how lame I was in that dream.

Seriously, that was nightmare!

That dream was very embarrassing. It wasn't a sweet dream, it was a nightmare.

Why did I kiss Phoenix?!

I checked up my phone and got a message from Nathan.

"I'm sorry I didn't reply your message immediately. I was busy with family in Tampa. I miss you"

Finally he replied my message I had sent centuries ago. I talked to him for a while but then I lost the signal since I was somewhere far from town. I couldn't stop over-think about the dream and the thought of Phoenix. I told Phoenix that I didn't love Nathan and nobody could explain how guilty I felt to Nathan because that dream seemed real. Those words purely came out from my heart but somehow it was kind of guilty pleasure because I had told my feelings to Phoenix even though it happened in my dream but I felt relieved. I couldn't lie my feelings to Phoenix. I loved him and I didn't wanna cheat on Nathan. Even though he got my third chance but still, I couldn't resist my feelings over Phoenix. I suddenly had guts to talk to Phoenix. I messaged him saying Hi but it said that his phone wasn't active. I sighed heavily and a few minutes later I eventually arrived in the train station. I walked slowly to the exit door wishing my dream was real. But actually not.