Midnight Thoughts

Being an Idiot

One night, I just missed you.

It's kinda bad idea that I missed you.

And I'm not supposed to be like this!

I'm asking myself "Why I'm acting like this?"

YET, my mind is not getting over about our past

Actually, WE DON'T HAVE A PAST.

It goes like this,

It was a long time ago since you know,

You asked me to be your girl,

I don't even know if you could still remember

that you asked me to be your girl.

And here I am the foolish one,

Hoping for something that is true but

Nothing was the truth.

And so, I thought your feeling was real

But there was nothing real.

And I've got an idea that maybe it was only joke

to you way back then.

Since you left me hanging in the idea that I got

Something on you,

Something that I've got a crush on you.

Days? Weeks? Months? Year?

Well, I didn't get any news about you.

Since then I got lost with your contact.

And we never got into touch with each other.

Time flies so fast that everything is change.

Something good to you was happen and so, do I.

And it happens when facebook is around.

We've got in touch by now.

I find it cool when we've got conversations, you know?

Your corny jokes become silly that makes me laugh.

Our nonsense topic turns to make sense.

And it goes deeper on how long would our conversation

takes its place,

I know, I'm making myself more foolish as ever.

Because as far as I know

I've got someone now that I loved.

Someone that wouldn't keep me hanging,

Someone that would made me realize

THAT ALL THOSE CONVERSATIONS WE HAD

REALLY MAKES NO SENSES.

And across my mind, there are "what ifs?"

WHAT IF WE NEVER LOST CONTACT?

*wasn't there any other changes?

*was your feelings become real? I DON'T KNOW.

WHAT IF YOUR FEELINGS WAS TRUE?

*is there any other chances? I DON'T KNOW EITHER.

WHAT IF YOU HAD REASONS EITHER WAY,

WHY YOU KEEP ME THAT HANGING?

*like you might just focus to your studies

WHAT IF? YOU LIKE ME?

NO! YOU DIDN'T LIKE ME. YOU LEAVE ME HANGING ANYWAY.

WHAT IF? WHAT IF? WHAT IF?

Even though there are thousands of WHAT IF'S?

What has been has been done.

There's nothing we could change about the past.

We can't really change what has been in the past.

It's just that there is one thing that keeps me bugging.

Cause the fact that you keep me from hanging.

Until right now, you keep me hanging on the idea

that I got something on you.

Something, that I've got a LONG LOST FEELINGS ON YOU.

JULY 3, 2015

01:42 A.M.