Midnight Thoughts

SIX YEARS AGO REALIZATIONS

Why I keep on nagging about you?

just because you left me.

I keep on wondering why you left me that way.

Then I realized, I'm not supposed to blame you.

I should rather supposed to blame myself.

I admit, I am the one who made a mistake,

I didn't give you any chance to see your worth.

And I wasn't able to see how sincere you are back then.

I just easily made a decision due to my immaturity,

Six years ago, I neglected you.

That's it! I neglected you just like you're nothing to me.

I know, I tear you apart and I'm sorry for that.

Yes, you confessed your feelings towards me.

I really can't believe it back then,

For all the girls why you choose me?

There is somebody out there much better than me.

Here I am the immature one,

I didn't really mean to break you down.

For breaking your heart, for tearing it apart.

I felt sorry for myself back then,

For being unable to see your worth.

For being numb, for easily neglecting you.

I felt sorry for myself for being an immature one.

I wasn't ready that time yet, that's the reason why.

It wasn't my intention to hurt you.

As time passes by, as years elapsed.

There is something within you.

Something that I can't explain with context,

I can hardly figure it out.

I don't know why, its kinda weird feelings.

Till I realized one day that I missed you.

I'm longing for your presence,

I can't believe this time would come

Somewhat it made me half crazy to think.

I am the one who felt pain right now.

Either it's you or your ego that causing me,

Somehow, six years ago your feelings towards me

still haunting me.

August 10, 2016 

01:49 A.M.