spilled ink

treize

it's 3 am,
and i feel it starting again just like i do every night
it's silent,
and the only noise i hear are my deep breaths,
struggling not to cry
my eyes are starting to water and now my right foot is rapidly tapping,
which is a habit i've developed to stop myself from having mental break downs in public at 3 pm
i can feel a tear threatening to spill,
so i quickly brush it away before it can fall down my cheeks
loud music is blasting through my headphones,
and after a certain lyric,
i break down