A Mean Girl's Broken Heart {Wattys2017}

Chapter - 12

There was this very awkward silence that went on towards the movie. We didnt even look at each other and our heart beat just kept on raising. After the movie was over he told me that he would love to drop me home and I was fine with it. But throughout the journey we barely even spoke a word which was completely the opposite of how we went there.

I kept staring at the window wondering if he really liked me or was it all just a game.

But he kept concentrating in his driving and on the road. There was no music and it was an awkward silence.

I wanted to say something but knots kept being tied inside my stomach that I couldn't even speak a single word because I was real tensed.

'What would I say if I wanted to talk?' Thoughts ran through my head and so i planned to turn on the music as we had 10 more minutes left and I couldn't bear the silence in the car. I put on the first channel and the song came was
' Is it desire? Or is it love that I am feeling for you I want desire..'
it was the song by YEARS AND YEARS..
I immediately turned off the music and the awkwardness became more awkward I went back to looking at the street lights and after a few minutes I snapped out of my thinking when suddenly Sean asked me
" Isn't this your house."
"Yeah"
I replied. But still all this seemed very awkward...

I went home after thanking and smiling at him. But there was still this tension that I could feel in the atmosphere something that I never felt in all of my other relationships and I did not know why. At the door i stared into his ocean blue eyes and i stared into mine but it was like he could my sould screaming out to him

'What have you done to me? Why are you making me fall in love with you?'

It almost felt loke he was gonna kiss me and then i just took my eyes of went inside the home and then went to the window and slightly shifted the curtains. I saw him turn and he caught a glimpse of me i turned closing the curtain.

I ran into my bedroom and took my phone attempting to call my best friends but i couldn't although it was very tempting as I promised myself that I would not tell them about him until it was literally very serious atleast this once I was ready to take it up seriously.

So i just took up the phone impateiently to see if I have gotten any message from Sean.
But no there were none.
Whenever my phone vibrated I really hoped that it was Sean sending a message or calling me.
But no it would be another lameo who followed me on insta or a friend request on facebook or just a creepy message from a nerd.

I don't understand why such people even exist. Oh yea duh! To make girls like me look better and out of the crowd. But then why do these people have to message at the wrong timing when my heart is filled with hope of Sean texting me... Arghh

I looked up my phone at an interval of 5-15 minutes very impatiently.

'After I thought he maybe liked me.. or maybe didn't he?!
Oh God I wish he liked me. That kiss meant a lot to me. I only wish that it would mean the same or much more to him. Hope that it wasn't the spur of the movement thing that he did it.

OMG! Is this how the other girls think. Shit! I am a popular and I should NOT have such emotional crazy feelings over a guy who i have a CRUSH on.. My oh my I am acting like a girl in middle school..

I am a popular and I have standards. I should make him fall for me. I should not think about him. But oh God why is it so hard. He is too gorgeous for me to forget about him. His sparkling eyes and his lips and that kiss...
It was a kind of magic. I was not much of a romantic but now I don't know.'

Sean's P.O.V
She is really beautiful. She maybe acting like a b**** but there is something about her. Something mesmerizing.

I waited for her call as I was expecting that she would because of what had happened in the theatre. For her this maybe just another kiss, who knows.

I couldn't sleep at night. I kept looking at my phone whenever it vibarated. I thought of even taking sleeping pills. I started to think about a lot of conflicting things.

'Why am I doing this to her? Why am I making her fall for me? Why am I deciving her? Why am I myself being lured into her trap just as I was told.?! I am not supposed to fall for her! Maybe I am not it maybe just some silly thought maybe it is the same game she played with every other person in her life. To lure them into her trap and then break their hearts.

I am confused.. Do I maybe like her??!!'

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Hope you all are enjoying the story.
So here u go the first P.O.V of Sean.
Dark things to come as yet.

Must tell is that I might not be able to update for a few months. Right now I am having winter vacay so am able to publish chapters now and then. But exams are soon going to start so I'm a bit slowing down..

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