A Mean Girl's Broken Heart {Wattys2017}

Chapter - 8

I came back home from school and at once flinged my bag to the couch which was a pearl pink color. The color really helped me to relax a lot. So yea and even though my parents were there in home for like the first time in what seemed like forever I still didn't seem to notice them.

Instead I just threw myself into my room and shut the door. At once I called Sean. Because it seemed I don't know, shocking and plus exciting to see him in my school. But then also I wouldn't show my excitment part instead only the shocking part of this coincidence.

I called him but then he didn't pick up. So I thought that I'll call him later on.

After an hour of simply staring at the beautiful champagne pink and gold ceiling with the glowing stars  that was put up when I was small, I thought about why that was put up and it was because the dark really scared me and when the stars were put up above my ceiling it made me calm and reminded me to always dream although, now a days I don't think about it much.

Anyhow I picked up my phone in the hand after I was snapped back to reality when my phone vibrated. I kinda wished that it was him but no it was just another bad flirter at school trying to flirt. I then thought to give a second try to call Sean but I actually didnt want to do it. I put my phone down on the bed right beside me and got onto the floor took the car keys in the bowl and just like that I went out from my home although my parents were there. But even if they are there, it is like they never are because they themselves have a lot to talk and discuss about among each other that, they are too busy to notice where I had gone. The only person who saw me leaving through the door was cadbury..

So I went and sat in the car playing my U.S.B. I cranked the volume up in my pink Ferrari. I did love the bass and the beats / music of all the songs. It gave me an amazing feeling always. The song that was playing was 'The Greatest' by Sia. Omg!! I swear I love that song. That is like the best song ever. It gave me goosebumps every time I listened to it.

So I started screaming the lyrics of the song on top of my voice. I didnt know where to go. So aimlessly singing, I started to drive the car. After about half an hour while I was singing 'Fly' by Justin bieber I went past a beach. It was quite empty. And this is after a long time that I, without cloe and Nicole went for a drive by myself. And so I stopped my car and let the window down. I sat inside the car and lowered the volume of the song. The breeze was just amazing. It was so beautiful. It has been a long time since I have enjoyed the breeze or even had any kind of connection to nature. I felt free and I have problems. Basically on of them was that my parents aren't so attentive to me but i used to think and calm myself by telling that at least they give me everything I ever wanted and I sometimes feel suffocated sitting in the four walls everyday and so I wanted a change. So thinking about a billion other things in my head I went outside the car. I took a deep breath in. The sun was setting and that was when I remembered that when I was really small my dad, me and my mom used to come here for a walk nearly every evening except on the weekends because it would be crowded.

So I was in this trance of seeing the sunset and taking in deep breathes. I haven't felt so good in a long time. Who knew that I needed some alone time. I always thought i needed people by my side. Like literally at all times. But now here I felt like a different person. I felt so calm and not so agitated. I didn't find the need to be perfect at anything not even my dressing although I wore 'white ripped jeans' from 'Levi's' and a 'dark blue full sleeved crop' top from 'Forever 21'. But this all didn't seem to matter. Because all i thought about was the breathtaking taking beauty and the peace i had within me. I didn't wanna leave. I could have stayed there everyday of my life. And so i was observing the sea. The waves, formed white foamy mouths and the sea, was a really beautiful deep dark blue color and the sky, started to be around 5-7 shades lighter than that of the sea. It was silent and all i could hear was the sound of the waves and the breeze blowing calmly on my face.